The miracle that happens for a girl like me through living a spiritual way of life, is to have another day alive and sober on this planet.
For whatever reason, I have a disease called alcoholism that is progressive and fatal. I hadn’t been able to live comfortably without putting something in my body to alter my mind for most of my life.
However, today I live free from the obsession to use a drink or a drug. Not only have I not used a mind altering substance in over eight months but I have had the most interesting and fun journey thus far.
At this point it cannot just about getting “relief”. I’m constantly shooting for happy, joyous and FREE.
And it happens.
So it baffles me that I used to deny the existence of an unconditionally loving God. According to the odds, I should be dead or loaded.
But I’m not.
If no human power can help me, no thing, job, amount of money, then my only hope is God.
So I pray every day to know God and his will for me.
Only someone like me, with alcoholism, would be granted the miracle and gift of life but then that not be enough, still be unsatisfied and want more.
This is the disease centered in self.
I have been granted the gift of life for today therefore my first priority has to be how can I love and serve God.
As long as I remember this and have gratitude in my heart, I can possibly have yet another day.