Sun Beams

As the clouds part, sun rays peak out from behind and beam down from the sky up above

Beams of light reflecting off the tiny particles of moisture in the air

When this happens, it reminds me that so much of what is real cannot be seen with the eyes

Whenever I notice this occurrence, I think of God

That God is always there in the air surrounding me, even touching my skin like the tiny water particles

Only I can’t see it

But if I’m quiet enough, still enough and aware enough

I can feel it

Sometimes it’s more pronounced, like a droplet of rain bouncing off my nose or catching me on my eyelashes

Sometimes it’s as subtle as misty morning air brushing by my cheeks

But when the clouds move in and the sun rays vanish into grey skies

Always

And especially when I forget it

God is there with me

Nothingness

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When i sit in the space of stillness

Drawing myself back in the moment of now

In the quiet

Voices in my mind pass like clouds on a windy day

My thoughts slow down to a stop

Listening to only the sound of my breath

In nothingness I remember the truth

The warmth of what is and has always been surrounds me

Soft vibrations of my being push outward

Going farther and farther up to the cosmos

I am everywhere

I am everything

Just One Girl

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I’m just one girl

Someone who’s finding her way

Curious about this world I’m in

Turning over every stone to find the truth

Growing towards a better version of me

Learning, learning and learning

Questioning everything the world has told me

Finding out just what it is I believe in

Stumbling over my feet at times

Falling, falling to confusion and doubt

Yet getting back on my feet time and time again

Stronger than before

Believing, trusting, pushing on

Standing tall and walking towards my dreams with purpose

Moving farther and farther away from my past

Closer and closer to being free

Truth, Love, Solution

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The most powerful thing on the planet is love.

I’ve never found that loving more hasn’t made any situation, any problem, better.

Loving the human being that I am and loving others has proven to be the thing that cuts through all fear and doubt.

Love is what connects us all.

Love is the truth of our being.

Love more today without needy attachment, without expectations.

Love freely with all that you are.

It’s always the solution.

Always.

Teaching Angels To Fly

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In the world of recovery, as with my job and with my personal life in the program, people often come and go into my life.

I take women under my wing.

I like to say that I teach angels how to fly.

I help them put on the training wheels and give them a little push.

Some touch my heart more than others.

Instead of focusing on the painful goodbyes, I focus on the beauty and light they shed in my life during the brief time I had them with me.

They each bring something unique with them and leave me with sacred memories.

One in particular is out there suffering right now and I cannot help her because the only help she needs can come from her connection with her creator.

A few days ago we were laughing and having fun being silly and then next thing I know she is lost to this disease and gone.

Every time I have the memory of the last time I saw her face flash before me in my mind, so broken and so lost, I pray for her and hope that someday she follows the light to guide her home.

I love you Liz.

Spiritual Price Tag

There is a spiritual price to pay for every nonspiritual act.

With this is mind I have yet again been reminded that by holding on to anger, resentment and judgement, I am only harming myself.

When I have these feelings, my actions follow and I don’t get the results I am looking for.

Instead, when not acting from a loving place, I get further from all the things I am looking for.

Letting go of the judgement I still hold against myself, is my focus today.

I still act on the belief I acquired when I was young, that if I were to just do the right things I can solve the problems that lie within the other people in my life.

It’s that old belief that if I just got it right other people would act the way I want them to.

The truth is that people’s actions and attitudes come from within their own beliefs about themselves and their own issues, it has nothing to do with the person I am.

So today I am okay just being who I am and I will allows others to be who they are knowing that the two are completely separate.

I will work on my own spiritual growth and hold forgiveness in my heart.