Letting Go

One thing I’ve discovered about myself is that I have a high capacity for justification. I can invariably hurt people and not see it. I lie to myself. I always have truth deep within me, but sometimes I’m far from admitting it. If I tell myself the truth, then I have to change. And if I don’t want to change, I continue to lie to myself and blame others.

I think I’m taking the easier, softer way by not having to courage to walk away from situations that are harmful to others, but really it’s because of my own selfishness. I don’t want to leave the comfort I get from someone’s attention, someone’s love, and I stay because I don’t want to be alone.

There will always come a time when the truth finds me, and I can no longer continue to live the lie. The people around me retaliate to my actions and it’s time to do the right thing.

Sometimes the right thing means walking away, freeing others from the hold I have on them. Loving them enough to allow them to finally find what they need, when I know it’s certainly not me.

The answer is always in loving more, loving myself and others. Letting go and moving on frees me from the suffering I create.

What is my choice to be?

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2 thoughts on “Letting Go

  1. Very well spoken, I could have written this post, it’s exactly where I am at right now. Specifically I moved out a month ago to give her the room and space she needs to heal from her past life, but I am alone and a little sad about the whole deal. The noble ideas you wrote about take guts and will surely cause you some sad times but all you really need is you.

    • Yes it’s not easy. It had never even occurred to me until I learned the true definition of love. There’s a definite freedom that comes from doing the right thing, for ourselves and others. The truth is that I’m at choice. Everything I do is a choice.

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