I Wonder

I wonder if a baby bird feels fear the very first time it jumps from the branch in flight, testing its wings? Or does it know that this is what its wings are for, and never doubts the power of the wind to take it where it intends to go?

I wonder if dolphins worry that when it goes deep under the oceans surface, whether there will be air to breath once they come back to the top of the water? Or does it trust that no matter how dark the waters get, there is light and life waiting up above?

Do ants wonder why they must work together to survive? Or do they innately know that the job they have on the ground is essential and equally important as all the others?

Does a horse take death personally and wonder why it gets sick way before most humans, and that it must eventually leave this world?

Do roses that were once in full bloom, bright and vibrant, get resentful at the other infant roses in the same bush ready to open to the light, as it browns and shrivels up? Or does it know it must die for others that are part of the same whole to live?

I wonder why I worry about a life so easily set in front of me, seemly dark at times, when God lights my path every step of the way..

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Release and Surrender

I can feel the release in my body when surrender comes.

It’s like I don’t even know how much has actually built up until the point that I finally let go.

I release my reality to God, to the universe.

Tears normally come and I say “God please help me. Help to know and follow your will for me. Whatever that may be or whatever that looks like, give me the strength and courage to follow you in times where I feel powerless, lost and tired of trying to do it on my own.”

My shoulders drop and I plead with complete and utter humility.

When the surrender comes, then there can be recovery, in any area of my life.

Room is made for a new power to flow in, the power of God I allow to channel through me.

In those moments, I know what miracles feel like.

It’s In The Actions

What I’m left with, at the end of the day, is the relationship I have with myself and God.

I now know what it means to live this human existence by spiritual principles.

I’ve been around enough now to be able to talk about it, explain it, theorize about it and intellectually know how it works.

But when it comes down to living it, right here and right now, do I actually do these things?

Do I live with integrity and honesty?

Do I lie to myself or am I honest with myself?

Do I constantly judge myself, beating myself up for meeting the unrealistic expectations I hold myself to?

Can I forgive myself for being human today?

When someone I’m faced with affects me in a way that I don’t like, do I treat them with tolerance and patience?

Do I relax into the fact that no one can hurt me or take anything from me without my allowing it, therefore allowing people to just be who they are with the security of knowing that I’m okay no matter what?

When things don’t go my way, do I get angry and frustrated, trying to manipulate and control people?

Do I accept those in my life for who they are and can I look for the good in everyone?

Is my love conditional?

Have I said what I need to say today, would my soul be at peace if I had no tomorrow?

Do I live in fear of not getting what I want and is what I think I need to be okay lie in the material world?

Or do I live in a world where things of importance or the things you can’t see, like inner peace, joy, love without conditions and freedom?

Do I focus on what I can give rather than what I can take?

These are some of the questions I ask myself daily to remind myself that I cannot intellectualize my way into freedom.

Freedom lies in the actions I take in the present moment.

Freedom lies in right now.

The Presence of God

When you are truly happy,

and you look back and see that every second in your life was necessary,

that it has brought you to where you are now,

that all of it happened for a reason,

when you know you’ve learned so much from your experiences,

that you cannot be who you are without it,

that you couldn’t have orchestrated it better even you tried,

when you wouldn’t take back a single thing,

when you’ve helped save someone else’s life with a similar story because you survived yours,

when you’ve become grateful for all the joy and all the pain,

you will know the existence of a God that is pure love,

and you will feel the presence of that God in every moment.

Acting Out Of Love

I will slow down, choose my thoughts, words and actions carefully, making sure that all of these are coming from a place of love instead of fear.

I never want to live from a place of fear again.

When I am acting out of fear it comes from a place of darkness and it creates havoc and discontent in my life.

When I am acting out of love then my life enfolds in beautiful harmony and I am on the path drawing nearer to my creator.

Simple Spiritual Principles

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How do I change the world?

I change myself.

I start with me and consistently, though never perfectly, focus on being the kind of person I would like to see in the world.

I’m true to myself no matter what. When I can do no other, when I feel that feeling deep within that an action must be taken or words must be spoken, I do so.

I do my very best to exist in the world without judgement of myself and my actions, and therefore have no right to judge another.

I strive to not cause spiritual, emotional, mental or physical harm to myself or anyone else.

I love without conditions. I don’t need to do or be anything to be deserving of love nor does anyone else.

I stay present. The past is history and future is unknown so why live there and miss the miracle of right now.

I thank God every day that I am still breathing, my heart is still beating and I have two feet on the ground.

And I serve God and my fellow humans as best as I can, as my primary purpose every day.

With these simple principles, the world I live in does change.

Or at least if only to me.

Spiritual Solutions Along With Therapy

Connecting my mind, body and spirit has been the new part of my journey.

I’d most of the time rather not be human and live in a different dimension.

I didn’t understand or like the fact that even though I am spirit in human form, I must live as a human. To survive my past I must work through the process of how to be free from it.

Never really knowing that the trauma I’ve lived through had been living in the cellular memory of my body, nor understanding how much it owned me and my present life, I had been a prisoner to it.

I have been now working through the process of bringing to my consciousness the events that have been suppressed my whole life, through EMDR therapy.

I had many previous judgements about therapy, having little use or faith in it.

However, I have been so fragmented, cut off from so much of my human self, including my feelings and deep beliefs about myself and the world because of my experiences.

My spiritual guide said my house (human) is just under repair and the end result of this work is freedom.

Through all this I just keep on doing these things:

Trust God

Clean house

Help others

Vibrate

Vibrate high with the sound of love

Love, the sound of all creation

End separation and judgement

What you judge you become

Blame will not serve you

Rise above the darkness

Have words of truth fall from your lips

Don’t theorize a spiritual life

Live it

Open your heart to unite with bliss

Give without conditions

Allow your soul to guide you

Let down your walls

They are needed no more

Be the magnificent creator that you are

Remember what you have forgotten

Reach towards the light

Towards your creator

It will never fail you

I Am Whole

Once the truth gets in, it’s hard to ignore.

I just need to make sure I find ways to be reminded of the truth daily.

Most importantly, one of the ways I do this is meditation.

Another way is to surround myself with other people who seek to live in truth as well.

I feed my soul with books and videos that aid in expanding my consciousness.

I am always at choice.

I can choose to turn my back on truth and suffer.

I can make a choice each day as to how I would like to experience life.

I can be happy and free.

This is something I make a decision to aim for every day.

No matter what goes on around me, no matter what others do, as long as I remember what is true, I can stay grounded and centered in my being.

Everything I think I need to have or have happen to be okay is an illusion.

I am whole right now.

I have everything I need right now.