It’s really difficult when you live your life as a kind, conscious and caring person, to be constantly confronted with the fact that people are not always that way. Continue reading
“The first time someone shows you who they are, believe them.”
– Maya Angelou
I have many shortcomings. One of which is being deep, about everything, all the time. It’s so hard for me to be light. To not spiral up or down about everything. I know that about myself. I scare people away with it sometimes, a lot of the time actually. It’s like with me it’s black or white. Like I can’t just let things be what they are and not think days, months or years ahead. Or I can’t not dissect every little thing and make permanent decisions based on temporary thoughts or feelings. Even after all this time of working on becoming self aware, there is still so much to learn! Someone asked me today why I completely turn my back and walk away from people I care about. She said life is short. We are only here for a minute so why would I do that? She said it seems that I can’t deal directly with people to work things out, that I avoid. It’s so true. I ask God today to relieve me of this defect and free me from my never ending stream of thoughts, opinions and fears, so that I may have a different experience on the planet.
“IF you can’t stop thinking about it, don’t stop working for it.”
“This is what I know for sure, you don’t get what you wish for, you don’t even get what you hope for. You get what you believe.”
I’ve loved you 1000 years
A thousand hugs
A thousand jokes
A thousand laughs
A thousand smiles
A thousand joys
A thousand triumphs
A thousand struggles
A thousand victories
A thousand tears
A thousand heartaches
A thousand unanswered questions
A thousand fears
A thousand hopes
A thousand disappointments
A thousand broken wings
A thousand tantrums
A thousand “why”s
A thousand lifetimes I’ve waited for you… to see that we were meant to be, born of the stars, you and me.
Deep in the center of my being is light, a light that is love, a warmth that wants to love. In my mind lies the desire to be loved, to feel it from somewhere outside of myself. But the truth … Continue reading
And out of the blue, and angel appeared. The little soul, lost in darkness, recognized the light shining from the angel with blue eyes so bright, so untouched by the evils of this world.
The little soul asked the Angel questions, “How do I escape all this darkness? How do I leave a life I so much do not want to be in? Tell me everything!”
The Angel answered in a soft voice, “Everything you seek is within you, if you want to leave this darkness then take my hand and I will show you the way out.”
The little soul was afraid, darkness is all it ever knew. But the one thing it did know, beyond a doubt, was that it knew this Angel very well. They had met before in another life and fate or destiny brought them together again, at the time the little soul needed her most.
And every soul has free will, to do as it pleases, to choose light or to choose dark. Frozen in indecision, the soul did not choose. But not choosing, is a choice, and so the Angel moved on, tears of sadness streaming down her cheeks as she left the little soul behind but the Angel understood the importance of choice.
To this day, the Angel dreams of the day they will reunite, in this life or the next, as kindred spirits always do, and waits at the bottom of the tree of wisdom, picking daisies, for the choice to finally be made.
There’s some people that have such a committed and detailed view of what they consider to be the perfect partner, the perfect picture, to have the perfect life. Their expectations are so brittle, that they mostly spend life alone.