What I’m left with, at the end of the day, is the relationship I have with myself and God.
I now know what it means to live this human existence by spiritual principles.
I’ve been around enough now to be able to talk about it, explain it, theorize about it and intellectually know how it works.
But when it comes down to living it, right here and right now, do I actually do these things?
Do I live with integrity and honesty?
Do I lie to myself or am I honest with myself?
Do I constantly judge myself, beating myself up for meeting the unrealistic expectations I hold myself to?
Can I forgive myself for being human today?
When someone I’m faced with affects me in a way that I don’t like, do I treat them with tolerance and patience?
Do I relax into the fact that no one can hurt me or take anything from me without my allowing it, therefore allowing people to just be who they are with the security of knowing that I’m okay no matter what?
When things don’t go my way, do I get angry and frustrated, trying to manipulate and control people?
Do I accept those in my life for who they are and can I look for the good in everyone?
Is my love conditional?
Have I said what I need to say today, would my soul be at peace if I had no tomorrow?
Do I live in fear of not getting what I want and is what I think I need to be okay lie in the material world?
Or do I live in a world where things of importance or the things you can’t see, like inner peace, joy, love without conditions and freedom?
Do I focus on what I can give rather than what I can take?
These are some of the questions I ask myself daily to remind myself that I cannot intellectualize my way into freedom.
Freedom lies in the actions I take in the present moment.
Freedom lies in right now.