Love and Fear

In the book Conversations With God, Neale Walsh writes his answer from God about the two deepest emotions that motivate humans – love and fear.

“And here is how human behavior produces repeat experience after repeat experience; it is why humans love, then destroy, then love again: always there is the swing from one emotion to the other. Love sponsors fear sponsors love sponsors fear.

And the reason is found in the first lie—the lie which you hold as the truth about God—that God cannot be trusted; that God’s love cannot be depended upon; that God’s acceptance of you is conditional; that the ultimate outcome is thus in doubt. For if you cannot depend on God’s love to always be there, on whose love can you depend? If God retreats and withdraws when you do not perform properly, will not mere mortals also?

And so it is that in the moment you pledge your highest love, you greet your greatest fear.

For the first thing you worry about after saying “I love you” is whether you’ll hear it back. And if you hear it back, then you begin immediately to worry that the love you have just found, you will lose. And so all action becomes a reaction—defense against loss—even as you seek to defend yourself against the loss of God.

Yet if you knew Who You Are—that you are the most magnificent, the most remarkable, the most splendid being God has ever created—you would never fear. For who could reject such wondrous magnificence? Not even God could find fault in such a being.”

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Mirrors Of Truth

The struggle ego drives against allowing truth to be heard can at times be much stronger than others, especially when off center.

Ego doesn’t have to win though.

Ego wants us alone, isolated. It wants us to view ourselves as separate, different. It wants to keep us afraid, especially of closeness to others.

There are people that come into our lives that encourage us to be and do better. They encourage us to continue to grow, even when our mind has us in its grip and fights it. They carry the light for us when we feel like we can’t.

As uncomfortable as it can be because ego always wants to be in charge, when someone speaks truth, our soul hears it.

We recognize truth not from the specific person speaking it but because it is already within us. They just are a mirror of the truth we already know.

But we need those mirrors so we can be reminded when we forget. Those people placed around us who work to raise consciousness are gifts of the universe to hold close.

Ego wants us anywhere but the present because everything we need is there. In the present moment there is nothing to fear. The people we love are in the present. God is in the present.  Yet ego refuses to look in right here and now for completeness because it can’t survive there.

There is nothing in future moments that will make us whole, yet we rush to them chasing that lie.  If we just get this thing, that amount of money, approval from “them”, job security, the right partner, ego says then we will feel complete.  

We get these things and sure enough, wholeness is not found.  

Ego just wants something more.

But we are only ever in the here and now.

Completeness and wholeness is right here, in this moment.

And that is the truth.

Love

All I needed was permission to just love

It came from the one person in this world that speaks truth to me
And I hear it
She said to just give love
No matter what the result
Without conditions or expectations
To love them even when they may not be where I am at
That what I’d been looking for was already all inside of me
That it’s in the giving of love freely
Without judgement
Without care of what anyone else thinks about it
Even if the person I’m giving it to doesn’t feel the same
Even if they don’t have the love to give like I do
It doesn’t matter
Because it’s in the giving love to others that I feel whole
I love because that it what I am here to do
Because love is what I am
Because pure love is what God is
I get closer to God the more I love
Together or not together
With you or without you
I love you with all of me

And to me that is all that matters

A Single Match

Today I stand in the light

My light

A single match lit with it’s flame burning brightly

Navigating through winds and rain

Storms though dramatically breathtaking

Eventually extinguish even roaring fires

Shielding from the elements to keep my glow

Small and unimportant

Yet resting on such responsibility

Leaning against other matches to ignite the torch of awareness

Brightening the path upward and onward for more to find their way

When dark is only the vacancy of hope

Cold the absence of love

Emptiness the lacking of God

Knowing that place very well

This tiny match pushes on from the repeating the past

And finds it’s home in the warm embrace of truth

 

 

 

 

If I had no tomorrow

If I had no tomorrow I what would I do?

I would tell everyone I know how much I love them.

I would hug more.

I would kiss more.

I would touch more.

I wouldn’t be afraid.

I would say EVERYTHING I needed to say to the ones I needed to say it to.

I wouldn’t care what I am wearing, how much I weigh, how my hair looks or how much money I have in the bank.

I would go outside.

I would smell and touch flowers.

I would look for butterflies.

I would take off my shoes to feel the earth under my feet.

I would want to remember how the sun and wind feel on my skin.

I would sit under the moon and the stars in the night sky and hold those I love close.

I would sing more.

I would dance to my favorite music, like no one was watching.

I would be still and thank God for every moment of my precious life here on earth.

 

All Things Starting With God

Everything that I have gained on this new part of my spiritual journey has been a result of my relationship with God.

My primary relationship has to be with God and from the solid existence of that, all other relationships flourish.

Everything in my life is effortless when I cultivate a conscious contact with God.

I can trust in the fact that everything that happens in the world around me is necessary and all I have to do is follow my truth and just be in the present.

I can listen to that voice inside me and follow it walking through any fear, knowing that no matter what I will get exactly what I need, I will be exactly where I am supposed to be and I will be completely taken care of.

I can be vulnerable.

I can say what I need to say.

I can allow others to love me.

I can give unconditional love to others.

I don’t have to play a character to try to keep myself “safe”.

I can be okay in the world with out “needing” anything.

When I stay in God’s will for me instead of my own, everything works out so much better.

I Write For Truth

It has been through my darkest of times that has propelled me to the light.

If I never knew what it was like for my spirit to live in what some would call hell, then I might never be able to recognise pure joy.

I looked around me tonight and I was overwhelmed at the amount of faces around me of those I have grown to know, love and have allowed to love me. There were so many! My heart was overcome with gratitude and complete fullness at the realisation of the fellowship and family of unique human beings I have created and drawn into my life today. It’s pretty amazing.

I wish I could put down in words all of the awareness and truth I experience each day.

I wish I had enough words to describe how much I am learning on this journey.

I try to explain as best I can, what is happening inside me as I evolve towards my true purpose on this planet.

Words can’t possibly come close to describing the feeling of complete and total connectedness to my creator and all that has been created.

I write what I can in hopes that others will hear something that will make sense.

I write to put out truth into the world.

I write to create.

I write to have a voice.

I write to share the love.

I write to move closer to God.

 

 

Spiritual High

Today has been the best day ever!

It’s only 3:05pm.

It doesn’t happen all that often thank God but it seems that the few times lately when I don’t want to do things or go places I get the biggest surprises.

I just show up, try and be as present as I can, say yes to any way I am asked to be of service and give love to my fellows.

I get to meet amazing, evolved new friends and get to feel truly connected to the world and the people around me.

I feel a part of.

All I have to do is just be and God does the rest.

Just by being present and loving, the world unfolds right in front of me.

There is absolutely no substitute for a spiritual high.

It is breathtaking.

Embrace the day!