Spiritual lessons come in all shapes and sizes, in all areas of life. So do bottoms. The problem with bottoms is that you may think you’re already there and then you go back just to find a new, lower bottom.
In my experience, I don’t really know I’m done with something until some time passes. I may be done for a short time because of the sting of my ego being bruised but then I go back for more.
Inevitably comes a time in every painful situation where the suffering out ways the benefits and therein lies a bottom.
Time away brings clarity. When emotionally removed from a situation I am able to see the truth I couldn’t see while in it.
The real lessons start to be revealed.
What do I really want? Why was I so willing to settle for less than everything I know is possible? Why couldn’t I just let go until now? What was it that drove my actions?
These are valuable questions that, if asked, are surely answered.
Being open to find the answers takes a lot of humility.
The hope is that I don’t keep finding myself in the same situations and expecting different results.
If I really trust in a power that is all loving and wants the best for me then I can let go and trust that if I move on from situations that no longer serve me, there are tremendous gifts on the other side.
The gift in bottoms that seem so sad and tragic at the time, is the growth we can attain, the self knowledge that is possible and faith in a better tomorrow in all things.
It’s only when I believe I deserve better that I attain better.
Today I surrender all to God and love myself enough to allow God to work in my life.
I just let go.