“Nothing lasts forever” are the profound lyrics of a song. Who would’ve thought there’s so much truth written all round us, we just need to look for it. Continue reading
One thing I’ve discovered about myself is that I have a high capacity for justification. I can invariably hurt people and not see it. I lie to myself. I always have truth deep within me, but sometimes I’m far from admitting it. If I tell myself the truth, then I have to change. And if I don’t want to change, I continue to lie to myself and blame others.
I think I’m taking the easier, softer way by not having to courage to walk away from situations that are harmful to others, but really it’s because of my own selfishness. I don’t want to leave the comfort I get from someone’s attention, someone’s love, and I stay because I don’t want to be alone.
There will always come a time when the truth finds me, and I can no longer continue to live the lie. The people around me retaliate to my actions and it’s time to do the right thing.
Sometimes the right thing means walking away, freeing others from the hold I have on them. Loving them enough to allow them to finally find what they need, when I know it’s certainly not me.
The answer is always in loving more, loving myself and others. Letting go and moving on frees me from the suffering I create.
What is my choice to be?
There is a lot to be learned by being present and observing one’s environment.
The smallest, most mundane thing can have the most amazing meaning and connection to all things.
As I sat by the pool in the hot sun, with the water completely still, I dipped just one toe in the water.
I watched as the ripples spread out in circles across the pool. When finally, it reached one of the chlorine dispensers floating in the pool, circular ripples bounced off and outward, eventually crossing over the ripples from my toe. When the ripples finally reached the edge of the pool, it bounced back, creating a giant pattern of ripples.
I took a step back and looked at the pool, once still, that now was dancing with a multitude of waves and ripples, vibrating all throughout.
It dawned on me that this is what we do, everyday with our words and actions. A small thing like a smile, vibrates outward to everything it touches. And then that object or person reacts back outward into the universe, touching more and more people, reaching farther and farther distances.
Can a tiny act of kindness reach across the entire globe and cause great things to happen?
Can magnificent, beautiful and perfect change happen from one simple loving thing?
I believe so.
All you have to do is just watch water.
I made a decision, after about as much suffering as I could stand, to do things differently to have a new experience on this planet.
The benefit to becoming more and more conscious as a result of continually looking at myself and doing the inside work, is that I can recognize when I’m repeating old behavior, and then I can change.
As a result of changing, I get a new experience and I get closer and closer to feeling one with God and others.
If I want the same results then I can keep doing the same thing.
But if I want something different, I must change the way I view the world and change my actions.
It’s not easy but the rewards are tremendous.
Find some courage and do something different today.
You can know the truth and nothing changes. Change doesn’t occur until you change your actions, and live the truth.
Even though I’m always resistant to change, any kind of change whether I’ve labeled it good or bad, it always contains growth.
Most of the time, even if where I’m at isn’t even what I truly want, I would rather stay right where I am rather than initiate or welcome change.
I look back at all my experiences, I can finally see how each moment, each piece of my life, has been valuable to my journey today.
All change has pushed and challenged me to grow as human being.
Still though, my first response to any type of change is fear.
Then a calm comes over me as I remember that I gave up resisting and turned my will and life over to something I ultimately trust with everything.
There is no need to fear change or anything else because the universe is always guiding me and showing me the way to a better existence.
Today I will welcome change and be fearless in the face of new experiences.
Today marks eleven months of sobriety without any mind altering substances.
Coming to believe in an all loving creator has transformed everything about me. Building a relationship with my creator, placing my life in his hands and slowly walking step by step, hand in hand with faith, has made this last eleven months the most amazing time in my life.
It has been full of triumphs and heartache. I have had moments of feeling lost and moments of bliss.
That’s the human experience.
Most of all, I finally have the solid belief that anything is possible and limits have seemed to fall away.
Continually I learn, grow and awaken.
How could I not be grateful for my life as it is today compared to how I’ve lived before this?
How do I change the world?
I change myself.
I start with me and consistently, though never perfectly, focus on being the kind of person I would like to see in the world.
I’m true to myself no matter what. When I can do no other, when I feel that feeling deep within that an action must be taken or words must be spoken, I do so.
I do my very best to exist in the world without judgement of myself and my actions, and therefore have no right to judge another.
I strive to not cause spiritual, emotional, mental or physical harm to myself or anyone else.
I love without conditions. I don’t need to do or be anything to be deserving of love nor does anyone else.
I stay present. The past is history and future is unknown so why live there and miss the miracle of right now.
I thank God every day that I am still breathing, my heart is still beating and I have two feet on the ground.
And I serve God and my fellow humans as best as I can, as my primary purpose every day.
With these simple principles, the world I live in does change.
Or at least if only to me.
Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
Ralph Waldo Emerson