Seconds and Inches

Life happens in seconds and inches.

Just one moment before or one moment after and we may miss or we may catch things.

Results from either determine our path as well as others.

Just when I think there couldn’t possibly be a reason for the way life seems to be going, I just can’t seem understand it, I am reminded as to why every second in this life is purposeful to the greater good.

When I feel I can’t let go of something, someone comes a long into my life and then it all makes sense.

When I least expect it, when I’m not even looking, something happens when I look into another’s eyes and it all makes sense.

I am reminded of how I got here, to this moment, to this experience.

I am reminded of the gifts that rain down from above as a result of being true to myself.

I am reminded of why moving through and into the pain carries great rewards.

Staying the course and moving towards love, towards God, grants miraculous events to come.

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Judgement

Judgement is pervasive, sneaky and infiltrates every aspect of my thinking.

It separates me from God’s will, my truth and other humans.

Just when I think I am not in judgement of myself, it pops up in another form or area of my life.

If I do not remain present and aligned with my spirit, I constantly find myself judging my thoughts, feelings and experience.

Judgement will say:

I shouldn’t have done this.

I shouldn’t feel this way.

I shouldn’t think these thoughts.

I should be farther along than I am.

I made yet another mistake.

I don’t have enough.

I’m not enough.

When in truth there is no should or shouldn’t. There is no right or wrong.

There are no mistakes in God’s world.

That includes anything I say, think or do.

I am not supposed to see the whole picture, the end result, the intricacies of this divine plan.

I need to be where I am to get to where I am going.

I can’t build a skyscraper without the first brick.

God says I am enough, worthy, beautiful, perfect and right where I am supposed to be.

Nothing I could do could ever be wrong.

I have turned absolutely everything over to this power I do not understand yet experience every day.

My only concern is, have I loved those right in front of me the best I could?

If I’ve done that, my soul can rest peacefully.

Hard To Be Human

It’s hard to be human most of the time. When awakened and all of the awareness and intuition floods in, the thinking mind works even harder to block it, figure it out and keep us from the truth.

A pattern I have been trying to break for a long time is denying the truth I know because my mind doesn’t want it to be true.

Why?

Because my mind is a place full of fear about what is. It then projects a future that either unrealistic fantasy or tragedy. In judgement about what is, my mind labels the present as “good” or “bad”. Obviously when it goes the way I want the judgement computes as “good”.

When it doesn’t, it appears to be “bad”.

It tells me that this is not supposed to happen or I would be better off, happier, if it would just would happen the way I think it should.

Never does it tell me that what’s happening is happening because it’s meant to, that not only are things unfolding in a divine way that is beyond what I will understand but that I need understand nothing.

Again, this incessant need to understand is from my thinking mind. And there are no answers there.

My soul just wants to experience.

So thinking is my only problem, all thinking. Without judgement there are really no “problems”.

The struggle is when to do and when to not do.

What can I change by doing and what matters little in this unfolding of the universe?

Again I am brought back to the only answers I know at this point, unconditional love, courage, living truth, being present and being the light.

The soul’s evolution

Coming to believe in a God that is pure love, light and goodness was the turning point in the evolution of my soul.

I didn’t have to work, manage or figure it out.

I just surrendered totally and completely and it happened.

Why did it happen now and not any sooner?

I don’t know.

My soul was just ready.

If I can see that about myself then I can let go of the judgement of other people’s journey and just love them unconditionally.

Everyone around me teaches me something if I am present and open.

If I can see that even out of complete dark, angry and fearful times when I could not see, that the most beautiful horizon revealed itself and tremendous growth occurred for me, then I can allow others to have their own suffering without attaching to that suffering.

I can have hope for them too.

I can stop trying to manage and control the world around me and just be.

I keep my eyes on myself and my own spiritual path.

There is a divine plan and all I can do is carry the torch, carry the light and carry the love.

From surrender and faith comes the ultimate freedom.