Growing Roots

image You are the stars in my eyes

Open as the seas thousands of miles from shore

Solid as the ground the stops our fall

The soil I would grow roots in

More than just a dream that wakes me smiling

A breeze that sweeps me up into the heavens

The flutter of butterfly wings in my chest

The eloquent words I’ve been searching to find

Spoken from your mouth with such grace

A beautiful example I would follow anywhere

The soft light in a tunnel of darkness

A new blessing in my life I’ve been waiting for

All along having no doubt that someday we would meet

In the here and now is where we’ve found each other

In the present is where we find love

The Change Must Come From Within

My soul aches for the lesson of you.


Ego seeks to control and manage against what is.


Glimpses of perfection hang in the air like the scent of you after your gone.


Brief moments of freedom when nothing mattered in the world but the two of us.


No clamour of the past or noise of the future.


My reality based on perception instead perception creating what I see.


Was any of it really what I believed?


Or was the story mine alone?


Wanting to make something what it will not be.


Sending light across time and space in hopes to heal a heart that is not mine to heal.


Wishing the switch to turn on the fuel to ignite your flame to burn as bright as it’s meant to be.


Waiting for your words and actions to mirror back at me what I feel for you.


Exhausted by indecision.


Needing to just be truly seen by you.


Tears fall on my pillow.


Wishing, wanting and needing cannot free a heart from the bondage of it’s past.


The change must come from within.





Settle For No Less


Why not wait for these words to come from the heart, by the love in your life?

Why not wait for these words to come from the heart, by the love in your life?

I can’t help but think that a lot of us dream of someone who would say these words about us or at least think them.

Than how come, more times than not, we settle for the person who may comment on some of the good qualities in us but also balance out those sweet words with a negative.  Why if this is what we dream about having, do we settle for less?   There can be many reason we don’t wait for “Mr. Right” and end up with “Mr. Right Now”.

We believe that no one really exits like this:  It could be from out past choices in men.  We have chosen for men that do not see into our souls.  The more we do that, the less we see the men of our dreams and think that all men are like the ones we have chosen so far.

We don’t think we measure up, without a partner:  Who wants to live alone and have to do the work of being our own reflection?  It’s more work we must do to find ourselves when we are alone.  Self worth must come from the things we do and feel and without someone to be the mirror for ourselves we may have not put the time in to believe in ourselves, to find out what we are truly made of.

We can’t be alone:  We have not found it within ourselves to find true happiness in the moment.  We have believed in the lie that if we are single, there must be something wrong with us, instead of believing that we are waiting, being patient, not settling and living in the faith that only when we can be ultimately happy with ourselves, can we bring real happiness and partnership into a relationship.

We get inpatient:  All of these choices steam roll into each other in supporting the disbelief that someone, other than our choices we have made so far, exists.  The less time we wait, the less choice goes into who we spend our time with.  The less “right” the man is, less faith that someone better suited for us exits, we in turn believe we will never find more.

The saying “good things come to those who wait” can be words to live by when our minds turn to why we are alone.

Remind yourself of this when you find yourself on the verge of choosing “Mr. Right Now”:

“I would rather be alone with myself, than with someone who treats me less than I deserve to be treated.”