Acting Out Of Love

I will slow down, choose my thoughts, words and actions carefully, making sure that all of these are coming from a place of love instead of fear.

I never want to live from a place of fear again.

When I am acting out of fear it comes from a place of darkness and it creates havoc and discontent in my life.

When I am acting out of love then my life enfolds in beautiful harmony and I am on the path drawing nearer to my creator.

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Becoming

“It is the light that encourages the flower to open up to the world.”

I see that all things must be done in love if I am to remember all the things I already know but forgot when I entered this human life and grow towards who and what I am.

If I am not acting out of love then I am acting out of fear.

It’s as simple as those two things.

We came from the ultimate love and love is what we are, and we are perfect just the way we are.

It’s why we want to love.

But to experience who we are and what we want to be, we must do what we don’t want to do.

We can’t know ultimate joy without ultimate pain.

We can’t know hot without cold.

We can’t know the power of our light without darkness.

We can’t know that we don’t want to hurt others unless we know the heartache of causing it.

It’s all part of the lesson, the becoming, the end result, neither good nor bad.

It’s what we are here to do.

Don’t judge yourself for the journey of finding out who you truly are.

You are in the process of coming closer to knowing your perfection and magnificence.

I, just like God, love you just as you are.

And like God, there is nothing you could do that could change that.

Born Into A New Life

If someone would’ve told me eight months ago that I would be living in another city, sober from any mind altering substances, awakened, with a new amazing job caring for a house full of girls that are like family, the same house that saved my life and be looking at a future full of hope, I would’ve called them crazy.

I expected to be six feet under the earth. I wanted to die. I prayed for death to come take me.

But death would not come for me as much as I invited it.

Instead I was lifted out of hell by a God that had different plans for me. Although I did not choose it, I was awakened.  I didn’t know how I knew but it was clear to me early on in my sobriety that I had a job to do on this planet.

And I was willing.

Willingness turned into determination. The more I seek answers, to understand the truth, the more it becomes clear where my place is in this world and what I must do.

Serve God first, help others awaken and then everything else.

It’s no longer about me and what I want.

I now get that every second of my existence on earth so far had to happen, in the exact way it happened, to prepare me for this next part of my journey. All of the darkness has been necessary because without it I wouldn’t have sought out the light.

There is always more work to be done, if my soul is to evolve. The work that needs to be done can only be done within. It’s a gift to be able to be present for this experience, so I can see the things that still block me from God, myself and others.

I can be present for the lessons.

By putting first thing first, my life has opened up and amazing things are happening.

I can’t wait to see what comes next. But one thing I know for sure is that whatever it is, I will be right here and right now to experience it.

And for that I am thankful.

Love

All I needed was permission to just love

It came from the one person in this world that speaks truth to me
And I hear it
She said to just give love
No matter what the result
Without conditions or expectations
To love them even when they may not be where I am at
That what I’d been looking for was already all inside of me
That it’s in the giving of love freely
Without judgement
Without care of what anyone else thinks about it
Even if the person I’m giving it to doesn’t feel the same
Even if they don’t have the love to give like I do
It doesn’t matter
Because it’s in the giving love to others that I feel whole
I love because that it what I am here to do
Because love is what I am
Because pure love is what God is
I get closer to God the more I love
Together or not together
With you or without you
I love you with all of me

And to me that is all that matters