Yesterday I turned one year sober. I started to write this on the actual day but couldn’t finish it because my day was so full of love, joy, emotion and amazing experiences.
I can’t even seem to put into words all that I am feeling.
To know the change that has occurred in me, to be able to see the woman I have become, to feel my heart full of gratitude for the life I know I have today because of God’s grace and the willingness to allow God to work through me, is something indescribable.
It’s never been about just not using drugs and drinking for me this time.
It’s not been about counting the days behind me that I have collected abstinent from substances that alter me.
It’s been about seeking a relationship with and connecting to this all knowing, all loving creator of everything and everyone.
It’s been about spiritual growth.
It’s been about my soul’s evolution and experiencing a freedom like I’ve never known.
The gift of willingness I have been granted, that you can’t buy or sell, has been graced upon me for what reason I do not know, but I hope to always keep, and has transformed me into the person that God intended me to be.
Today that’s more than enough for me.