Complete With Just Me

What I need to do is thank God for my life today and for the person I’ve become by allowing God to work through me instead of resisting what happens to be at this moment.

As I sat there today with my sponsor frustrated and confused my sponsor said to me, “Do you know how amazing you are?”

I just looked blankly at her because my ego tells me different even though my soul knows the truth.

Just then one of our clients came in and told her that she just wanted her to know how amazing I had been to her while my boss was gone out of the country and how good I had taken care of her. It was followed up by many of the girls I care for saying the same thing.

She said everyone knows it see?

The truth is that I have a beautiful life today full of people who think I’m just an angel, which is far different from what people had thought of me just over a year ago.

I can lay my head down at night and know my day has been in service to my creator and I’ve been the best person I can be.

I am free.

1 Year and 1 Day Sober

Yesterday I turned one year sober. I started to write this on the actual day but couldn’t finish it because my day was so full of love, joy, emotion and amazing experiences.

I can’t even seem to put into words all that I am feeling.

To know the change that has occurred in me, to be able to see the woman I have become, to feel my heart full of gratitude for the life I know I have today because of God’s grace and the willingness to allow God to work through me, is something indescribable.

It’s never been about just not using drugs and drinking for me this time.

It’s not been about counting the days behind me that I have collected abstinent from substances that alter me.

It’s been about seeking a relationship with and connecting to this all knowing, all loving creator of everything and everyone.

It’s been about spiritual growth.

It’s been about my soul’s evolution and experiencing a freedom like I’ve never known.

The gift of willingness I have been granted, that you can’t buy or sell, has been graced upon me for what reason I do not know, but I hope to always keep, and has transformed me into the person that God intended me to be.

Today that’s more than enough for me.

Today

I am so grateful for this journey as crazy, busy, messy, and just silly as it had been at times.

The beauty is revealed to me as I take moments to sit back and just watch those around me.

Women come into my life when they have hit bottom, beat down, their lives are in turmoil and the problems are stacked high against them, yet they still can relax, have fun, laugh and be silly.

To see them just let go, maybe for the first time in their lives, if for only a few moments, and find the joy in just being totally makes everything worth it.

Everything I went through, the depths of darkness, allows me to relate to others and send a message of hope.

I can say that I have been there, I’ve experienced that and I felt like that but I’m free of it and they can be too.

Just to know that no matter what happens when they leave here, that hopefully they have felt love without any conditions attached, that I’ve done my job of loving them well, is all I can hope for.

Today has been a good day.

How Do You Wish To Vibrate?

“Let’s say you’re feeling excited, joyful, and grateful. Those emotions send out high-frequency vibrations that magnetize more things to be excited, joyful, and grateful about. Anything with the same high frequency will prance on over to your energy field. However, if you’re scared, guilt-ridden, and convinced there’s a terrorist around every corner, you’re sending out low-frequency vibrations that will attract ugly things into your life. We always attract our vibrational match. We are the initiators of the vibrations, and therefore the “magnets,” or the cause.”

Pam Grout

Is Life Supposed To Be Hard?

There’s so much beauty in the world.

It’s in every moment.

Only if I’m constantly looking back into the past or planning, worrying or stressing about the future, I can’t see the beauty and amazement that lies in what’s right in front of me.

Some say life is tough.

They say it’s supposed to be hard.

I’ve thought that before.

I think it is hard if you believe it is supposed to be hard.

I am eternally thankful that I’ve had a different experience now.

I’m more free now than ever before, not because life has gone or suddenly started going my way but because I gave up resisting everything and everyone.

I strive to remain present.

By giving up resistance I find I don’t need to suffer.

How can I judge what’s happening when I can’t see the end result?

What my experience tells me is that allowing what is to just be, I am happier, calmer, more peaceful and joyous.

Living in gratitude for what I have just brings more into my life.

The universe comes to me and my life just becomes a whole lot better.

Thank You Universe

My life today is more amazing than I could’ve ever imagined.

I have been awakened to truth.

Through this experience I have unlearned most of what I thought knew.

I have held myself back my whole life by thinking and believing small.

In reality, the sky is the limit.

I have been opened up to love deeply.

I’ve recently met a lovely person that I can share anything with and is absolutely inspiring.

I have an unshakable foundation and connection with God to weather any storm.

I work at the best place on the planet and my career is taking off super quickly.

I get paid to be of service to humanity.

Today I am free, full of hope, joyous and happy.

Thank you universe for lifting me up out of the darkness and into the light.

Positivity and Living

What happens when you focus on retraining yourself to think positive, stay present, stay in gratitude, bring light to all situations, serve your creator and love without conditions?

Life opens up in ways unimaginable.

Yes it takes practice, especially when we have lived our lives contrary to this way of life.

We never get perfect.

However, I’ve experienced and continue to experience the dramatic turn life takes when constantly practicing this way of life.

Every single area of my life has gotten better.

Most importantly I have been given inner peace, love, connection, companionship, and more ways to serve the planet and the people on it.

It’s been possible by holding on during the tough times and riding it like the wind when it’s great.