“God is everything or else He is nothing. God either is or He isn’t.”
Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous
I could read something 1000 times but until I was ready to really hear it, I just couldn’t fully grasp what it meant. Years of seeking to find answers, to find truth, to find the path to be what my soul always knew I was, has led to me the understanding I hold today for what this truly means.
My soul yearned to know it’s potential but I was driven by ego.
I used to wonder why there was a need for darkness, for sadness, for pain and deny that there was a purpose for it’s existence. Now I understand that we cannot know and experience the beauty and power of the light we are without the existence of everything we’re not.
We have to experience the opposite of what we are to know who we want to be.
God is the darkness and the light, the tragedy and the joy, the hope and the suffering. God is just as much you and I, as he is each grain of sand on the beach.
God is in every moment, song, sign on the street, word or whisper spoken.
God is in the tears spilling from our eyes, the laughter, the pain, the joy and even the heartache.
To deny any of this would be to deny the existence of God.
To shelter ourselves from people, relationships, connection, trust and love, of our own will, is to shelter ourselves from God.
Today I understand that I must live, really live, to ever become what my soul yearns to become.
That is what God wants for me.
That is what God wants for you too.