I found the love I had been seeking in the eyes of others, my entire life, and that love has been found inside of me.
My journey to become whole, totally on my own has led me here, standing over the pool, looking at my own reflection ripple over the illuminated water, in this warm summer’s evening air.
Here in this space, is a place where I am completely enough on my own.
A year ago I was still needing to be seen by someone else.
A year ago I was needing a particular someone to make life seem complete. I thought if I had that, then I could be truly happy. I thought having them was the missing piece of the puzzle. I was wanting so badly to be loved but I was still lost and seeking outside of myself something that would never be the answer.
Because the answer was not outside of myself, it was inside of me.
Today I am not looking to be seen by someone else to know my worth, only my eyes matter in examining this water’s reflection.
No longer to do I need the approval or acceptance of another to feel loved or loveable.
When I wake up in the morning, I know I am going out into the day to be the person I want to be.
And when I lay my head down at night, I know I have lived and loved the best I can.
I know I’ve served the best I know how.
And on this ball of dirt and water flying through space around and about the other stars, planets and sun, the rest does not matter.
The only thing that matters is life right here and now.
The only thing that matters is love.