With every ending is a new beginning, more beautiful, more deep and more lovely than before.
With every moment of deciding what I haven’t wanted, I’ve been able to discover what I do want.
Every time I have walked away from not good enough, I find that the universe provides me with something better.
It’s been there all along, the best my creator can offer, I just have missed it.
Too focused on the past to see what’s right in front of me, what’s here and now is so much more than before.
It’s the gentle wave of a new beginning.
Beauty and hope all wrapped up together in something truthful.
I hear you universe, whispering in my ear, “Push on forward, my gifts are just beginning.”
Taking an honest look at my past is valuable because it can be used as my doorway to freedom.
I say this because unless I know where I came from and what those experiences taught me about the world I live in, I won’t be able to see how and why I keep recreating it over and over today.
The continual unconscious drive to keep living out the same insanity keeps me in bondage.
Unless and until I become awake to the patterns of my actions and the underlying beliefs behind them, I am unable to make new choices and do something different for a different result.
As a survivor of molestation by someone who was supposed to be my protector, I have continued out that cycle by the choices I have made in my intimate life.
What seemed “normal” to me was that the person who was supposed to protect me was actually my abuser, like a kidnapped victim falling for their kidnapper.
I couldn’t see what was actually happening.
I didn’t understand why this was happening over and over again.
I didn’t know that I was the one who was creating it now.
I have become to see this play out in my life today and now can recognise it much quicker and finally have the awareness to make new choices and take different actions that lead me towards a better existence.
More consciousness develops from this inside work.
I get closer and closer to the life I want.
That is what I call freedom.
God exists not only in each one of us but in the space between you and I.
I cannot claim to want to experience intimacy if I cannot give up trying to protect myself.
The two cannot coexist.
I can only be in true connection with myself, God and others, when I truly allow myself to be vulnerable.
I can only be free when I stop trying to control the universe which will not be controlled.
My soul WILL evolve whether my ego likes it or not.
I will choose to be free.