Born of the Stars

I’ve loved you 1000 years
A thousand hugs
A thousand jokes
A thousand laughs
A thousand smiles
A thousand joys
A thousand triumphs
A thousand struggles
A thousand victories
A thousand tears
A thousand heartaches
A thousand unanswered questions
A thousand fears
A thousand hopes
A thousand disappointments
A thousand broken wings
A thousand tantrums
A thousand “why”s
A thousand lifetimes I’ve waited for you… to see that we were meant to be, born of the stars, you and me.

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Inner Peace

No longer do I hold the belief that even though God may exist, God is just something that stands on the sidelines watching everything go down with little involvement in any of it.

God is absolutely everything.

I don’t believe that God can be described or comprehended by our human minds.

I believe God is experiential and felt by the soul.

Nor do I humanize God, giving God a gender, or face, or character.

I believe God transcends all of this.

I believe that I play the small part God has assigned me in a divine plan that I may never see the result from but know in the core of my being is perfect.

When I came to this knowing I could finally relax and experience a earth shaking sigh of relief.

This relief came from the knowledge that it was not all up to me to decide, manage or control and that everyone’s path was uniquely their own.

It was necessary for their own spiritual growth.

Just like mine had been my own and very valuable.

The only thing I can do is love myself and those whose lives I touch, without conditions.

I can finally relax, just be and begin to know inner peace.

And I am also totally fine with the fact that everything I believe could possibly change tomorrow.

 

The Presence of God

When you are truly happy,

and you look back and see that every second in your life was necessary,

that it has brought you to where you are now,

that all of it happened for a reason,

when you know you’ve learned so much from your experiences,

that you cannot be who you are without it,

that you couldn’t have orchestrated it better even you tried,

when you wouldn’t take back a single thing,

when you’ve helped save someone else’s life with a similar story because you survived yours,

when you’ve become grateful for all the joy and all the pain,

you will know the existence of a God that is pure love,

and you will feel the presence of that God in every moment.

The Puzzle

Can I tell you a story?

It’s about a girl who came into this world with the purpose of remembering what she was here to do.

She came from a different dimension, another world and
chose this life, these parents, this place, to fulfill a destiny.

She yearned to know the experience of what it is like to be human.

As time went on, instead of remembering where and from whom she came from and was also equally was a part of it, therefore possessed the ability to create anything she could dream up, she just forgot more and more.

The feeling of separation from where she came from grew and grew as a result of this human character that she created, in an effort to protect her from things that happened to her.

She suffered greatly on this earth for a long time until she could no longer stand the suffering.

She thought she wanted to die but in reality it was her soul wishing for the death of the human part of her.

Eventually that human part cracked just enough to allow an awakening to occur.

Suddenly she saw the world in a different light.

She started to remember.

An outstanding idea presented itself. She could end her suffering, she could just stop resisting.

Like a child with her nose pressed up against a puzzle, therefore not even noticing that it is in fact a puzzle, she could not see that the puzzle pieces created a whole entire image. The pieces being everything that has happened in and around her in her life, and in this world.

As she backed away from the puzzle a breathtaking image of perfection appeared.

Another idea came to her.

Even though at close range she could see how the pieces fit together so perfectly, so effortlessly, just maybe there was more to see, like a puzzle inside of a piece of a much larger puzzle.

A puzzle so large that she might never be able to back away from it enough to see the whole of it.

And for once, that was okay with her.

She was okay with not seeing it all, not knowing it all because there was clearly a divine plan that could, made by the ultimate designer of it all.

If something beyond her comprehension could create such a perfect and beautiful plan, maybe, she just might, be able to place her trust in that. Like allowing yourself to fall into a net that was built to hold you up, and resting in the comfort of the safety of that net.

It was then that stopped resisting.

That was the beginning of this girl letting go.

Safe And Protected

The universe always has answers all around me, all the time, to all my questions if I just open my eyes to them.

It’s like these flashing signs screaming for my attention.

When my ego is loud and I’m caught up in expectations, resistance, and personal desires, I can’t see what’s right in front of me.

The more I try to “figure things out” with thinking, the less chance I have to be connected to the answers within.

The answers will not come from my thinking.

Times of quiet meditation, just slowing down altogether and being present, is necessary for knowing which direction to go and what path to take.

In times of indecision, although it’s taken practice and I’m never perfect, I have made progress on not reacting but just waiting until I’m sure of what action to take.

When answers become clear that’s when I need courage.

Courage enables me to step out from fear and into faith and trust, that God has my back no matter what, and I then I can follow what I know to be true.

I feel the power flow through me from a strengthened connection with God when I do this and feel the presence of God all around me.

I feel safe.

You and I

Hands open wide
Ten finger tips touching mine
Tingling electricity traveling
Throughout my human frame

Arms slide behind my back
Slowly pulling me near
No space left between us
Molding to fit each other

A wordless knowing stare
Where ticking time stops
Silence stills the clamor
Of all the world around us

Planet earth has stopped spinning
Gravity lets go of its hold
Floating absolutely grounded
And all that matters is now

All that matters is you and I

Feeling Whole

Why is it that I have felt that I needed certain people in my life, whether family, friend or lover?

How had I gotten attached to the idea that I am not okay without them in my life in some form or another?

It seems that I have been looking to others to somehow make me feel whole.

My mother’s love and approval must mean I am a lovable and a good person.

My friends wanting to be around me and share their life with me must mean I am worthy of love and friendship.

My lover wants to be with me therefore I must be attractive, desirable and lovable.

Do I not already know all these things about myself aside from what others see in me?

I was constantly looking to others to know whether or not I was okay with myself.

I was needing without knowing I was needy.

Relationships with others failed or disappointed or worse yet, had me feeling less than instead of the feeling I was seeking which was to be whole.

I was looking to feel whole in places I would never find it.

In reality, I must be whole first to ever come into relationship with others successfully.

I find all that I was seeking to find in others, in building the relationship between myself and my creator.

I finally have a relationship that will never disappointment or lead me astray, that will comfort and love me, and that will give me all that I ever need.

I am free from needing anyone to truly know who I am today.

Plan of the Universe

Sometimes God does for us what we cannot do for ourselves.

I believe when things, people or situations are removed from us, this happens to make room for the new. If I look back I can see that this always happens in my best interest.

When I cannot let get go of something, if it’s time for it to be over, it is literally removed from me.

As long as I get into acceptance and surrender, there may be pain but suffering is optional.

The universe lays out the path for me and by staying present I can hear the answers and see what is presented for me to do.

None of this matters though if it’s only in theory. Unless I have trust in a higher power, what I call it is irrelevant, then how can I let go of trying to manage and control everything around me?

How can I allow the universe to come to me and find peace in the chaos of the world surrounding me?

I am blessed with the life I have been given today.

Thank you God for everything, the lessons, the pain, the joy, the gifts and the miracles.

Everything is exactly as it should be.

Miles

Miles I have traveled see you
To know you
A journey of self discovery
To be ready for the experience of you

Things I had to learn
To know myself and be free
Blues eyes mirroring amber brown
Your smile, your gentle nature

Your soul on your sleeve
A light in the crowd
Loosing myself when we’re near
Energy not to be denied

Your scared I know
But what we fear we attract
Life is in the living
So fear not for everything comes from God

The gift is in acceptance of what is
Taking what he gives
Opening up our hearts
Is what it’s all about

Take the risk
Roll the dice
Luck is on our side
I’m waiting over here just for you