There are no coincidences in this experience called human life. Every second orchestrated in beautiful harmony whether we can see it in this present moment or not.
I’ve been very physically sick, sicker than I’ve been in a long, long time. For the last few days it’s been constant suffering. There still seems no end in sight. It came on like a storm out of the blue.
It has forced me to slow down and just be. Though at this very time my ego has been feeling it quite inconvenient. I cannot go run and do a million things to avoid myself.
I can’t do much of anything except talk (and that is difficult), read and do some writing.
Why is this perfect timing?
I’ve lost someone I love.
Today I should’ve started the gift of my new position at work.
I’ve had to allow people to help me. Those I typically help, I’ve had to lean on to help me, which is still a work in progress for me.
I’ve had to say no to people.
Although I’m finding life today is not how I would’ve liked to see it, and add to it being physically hurting and ill, this is actually the perfect time.
I have been “encouraged” by the universe to delve deeper within.
And so I have.
This feeling of complete and utter surrender, being out of answers, no resistance, giving up everything I think I know, exhausted and at the mercy of all that is in this moment, is a familiar feeling I’ve felt before.
Uncomfortable as it is, I feel the weight of the world lifted off my shoulders, again. Weight I never knew I had been carrying, yet again.
I can look back at all the growth and beauty that grew from this experience in the past and believe that it’s about to happen again.
Because I have awareness today.
Because I trust.
Because I am open.
Because I am willing.