I am constantly reminded that living a spiritual path takes effort in the day I’m in. Amazingly enough, when I am consumed by problems, taking the focus off the problems and focusing on my spiritual maintenance makes all the problems fall away.
Focusing on how I can replace fear, anger, judgement, guilt and shame, with love for myself and others changes everything. For a girl like me, starting my day with a spiritual reading, followed by prayer and meditation, is a necessity.
I can only shift from starting my day driven by ego to allowing spirit to guide me by plugging into to my power source which is God.
I laid in bed for 20 minutes this morning after waking, trying so hard to fall back asleep, instead of just getting up when my body woke me. During those 20 minutes, I got a good look at my alcoholism. My mind just was waiting for me to wake up so it could start shouting at me. Thoughts came of the days before, past judgements on myself, what could happen in the future, what could go wrong and I was having conversations with people in my mind that I wished I could have had differently.
Thoughts circled in my mind round and round until I just had to get up and connect with God. I asked for help to be loving, kind and gentle with myself and others. I sat with a girl who I am guiding through this journey as well and helped her through conversation and direction.
We had an amazing conversation and connected through our similar experiences. Getting out of self, I felt a calm and peace.
Being loving, giving of myself and sharing the solution to suffering is true fulfillment.
Love is the answer to all my problems today.
I can only connected with God in the present moment.
I must slow down to be present.
I find peace and love only by grounding myself in the now.