Nothingness

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When i sit in the space of stillness

Drawing myself back in the moment of now

In the quiet

Voices in my mind pass like clouds on a windy day

My thoughts slow down to a stop

Listening to only the sound of my breath

In nothingness I remember the truth

The warmth of what is and has always been surrounds me

Soft vibrations of my being push outward

Going farther and farther up to the cosmos

I am everywhere

I am everything

The Silence

“Make peace with silence, and remind yourself that it is in this space that you’ll come to remember your spirit. When you’re able to transcend an aversion to silence, you’ll also transcend many other miseries. And it is in this silence that the remembrance of God will be activated.”

Wayne Dyer

We are everything

I am the sun that shines in the sky

The moon that illuminates the night

The drops of water on morning leaves

The wings of butterflies

The colors of wild flowers in a field

The blades of grass waving in the breeze

The trees that stand rooted in soil

The oxygen that gives life

The atmosphere

I am the music of crashing waves on a beach

Laughter of children

A warm hug

I am love, understanding, hope, joy & goodness

I am the smile from another

The eyes that look back at me

I am you and you are me

And we are everything

 

I am constantly reminded that living a spiritual path takes effort in the day I’m in.  Amazingly enough, when I am consumed by problems, taking the focus off the problems and focusing on my spiritual maintenance makes all the problems fall away.

Focusing on how I can replace fear, anger, judgement, guilt and shame, with love for myself and others changes everything. For a girl like me, starting my day with a spiritual reading, followed by prayer and meditation, is a necessity.

I can only shift from starting my day driven by ego to allowing spirit to guide me by plugging into to my power source which is God.

I laid in bed for 20 minutes this morning after waking, trying so hard to fall back asleep, instead of just getting up when my body woke me.  During those 20 minutes, I got a good look at my alcoholism.  My mind just was waiting for me to wake up so it could start shouting at me. Thoughts came of the days before, past judgements on myself, what could happen in the future, what could go wrong and I was having conversations with people in my mind that I wished I could have had differently.

Thoughts circled in my mind round and round until I just had to get up and connect with God. I asked for help to be loving, kind and gentle with myself and others.  I sat with a girl who I am guiding through this journey as well and helped her through conversation and direction.

We had an amazing conversation and connected through our similar experiences.  Getting out of self, I felt a calm and peace.

Being loving, giving of myself and sharing the solution to suffering is true fulfillment.

Love is the answer to all my problems today.

I can only connected with God in the present moment.

I must slow down to be present.

I find peace and love only by grounding myself in the now.