“This is what I know for sure, you don’t get what you wish for, you don’t even get what you hope for. You get what you believe.”
As I have grown and awakened to truth throughout this life’s journey, as much I have learned, what I know about myself today is that I can easily forget everything.
I can shut myself off from God in a second, stop doing what I have been doing that works and then instead of being driven by spirit, I am driven by ego.
I become closed, ego prevents me from hearing truth and the downward spiral occurs.
Instead of standing in the light with my fellows, I end up standing in darkness alone.
The good news is as soon as I become wiling and open to listen, I again remember why I’m here, what my purpose is and what is really important, like being awakened from a bad dream.
There is no past, no future, just now.
I am not this body nor this character in my story.
I’m not here to for the career, the money, the things, the partner, the friends, the kids, the family or any acknowledgement I may seek to gain from these things.
The main thing that remains constant, the truth I always come back to from all this, is that my only job here on the planet is to love and embody love.
It seems too simple to be true.
It is entirely that simple.
But that’s it.
It’s all about love.
The problem that causes all of my “problems” in this human experience lies not in truth but in my perception of my day.
My reality is based in the story I tell myself. My feelings follow from whatever story I am telling myself.
Most always, nothing changes in my day. Truth does not change. It’s the story I start telling myself from my thoughts that cause me to feel a certain way.
It comes from my judgement of events.
That judgement comes from belief systems not based in truth.
I can start to tell myself a new story.
I can tell myself any story I wish and then my feelings can change around what I see is happening.
I can tell myself wonderful stories, stories of gratitude, and create a wonderful existence.
I have the power to control my feelings.
I can tell myself that every moment in my present life is bringing me to something greater.
It lies in the connection of mind, body and spirit.
Guided by spirit, I can change what my mind thinks, my “feelings” and the reaction of my body to my thinking mind.
Being constantly aware of the story I tell myself takes practice.
If I let God in I have the power to change it all, to change my entire reality.
If I had no tomorrow I what would I do?
I would tell everyone I know how much I love them.
I would hug more.
I would kiss more.
I would touch more.
I wouldn’t be afraid.
I would say EVERYTHING I needed to say to the ones I needed to say it to.
I wouldn’t care what I am wearing, how much I weigh, how my hair looks or how much money I have in the bank.
I would go outside.
I would smell and touch flowers.
I would look for butterflies.
I would take off my shoes to feel the earth under my feet.
I would want to remember how the sun and wind feel on my skin.
I would sit under the moon and the stars in the night sky and hold those I love close.
I would sing more.
I would dance to my favorite music, like no one was watching.
I would be still and thank God for every moment of my precious life here on earth.
How I practice getting in line with the voice of God inside of me, what my spirit is trying to tell me, is to focus on these questions:
What would I do today if I had no fear?
What would I do if I shut off my thinking and followed what my soul needed?
If I had no past and no future?
What what I do that brings me joy?
What would I need to say to those in my life so my soul can be at peace?
Could I be free of what other people think of me if there was no tomorrow?
What could I let go of?
What really matters to me?
If I created my own reality, what would it look like?