What’s in a word?

I used to take words so literally, assigning very specific meanings, ideas and concepts to words I heard in someone’s speech or read in someone’s writing.

All these beliefs came from my conditioned mind and I never thought to question the judgements that came along with words, so much of my past influencing them.

It wasn’t until I had been awakened that I started getting caught up in my own use of words.

I still find myself seeking for just the right ones, but with so much history attached to certain kinds of language, I’m at a loss of which ones to use.

But there are no “right” words.

Because they are just words.

With this struggle to find words to describe the truth that I understand today, because of my old rigid standards and definitions attached to them, it became less about words and more about truth behind them.

When I listen to people now, or read or listen to spiritual teachings that use different types of language, I listen for what’s behind the words.

I pay attention to the energetic vibration or feeling intended.

I now just use words interchangeably.

It’s not so much about the language used.

For example, sometimes I say God, the universe, soul, spirit, being or knowing.

It try not to get stuck on one way of describing ideas.

I’m open minded and flexible.

It matters less to me now than ever, because truth is truth no matter how it’s expressed.

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Forgiveness

Make no mistake you asked for all of this. The all loving universe responded to your wish as it always does when we set intentions.

This thing, this lesson, this growth, whether your ego agrees or not, likes it or not, is what your soul desires.

And the soul always wins.

The quicker you stop resisting and seek answers from within, and follow what your soul already knows but wants you to remember, the quicker the lesson with be over.

To thine own self be true.

Do without judgement for God does not judge.

You need not forgiveness from Him because nothing you could ever do is wrong in His eyes.

You need forgive yourself for it is in the dark place called your mind that the concept of right and wrong exists.

It is a construct of the human ego.

So the question is:

Can you forgive yourself?

Peace Is In Each Moment

All the ideas I had based living my “old life” on, ones I never knew I believed let alone consciously questioned where they came from, have proven inafective.  They had been keeping me in bondage.

I’ve been blessed with the gift of clarity and awareness to the truth.  Inititally it was like a blindfold lifted from my eyes.  Now, it’s like a slower process of my eyes focusing to the adjustment of a bright light after only seeing darkness.

Living in a state of being “off to the races” as some call it, speeding through life in an effort to do the most, get the most and feel the most I possibly could, had me under the allusion that I would find wholeness.  The problem was, I was missing everything and found nothing but a never ending rabbit hole that led me to hell.  I would’ve kept chasing that lie had it not been for a divine intervention.

I was in a constant fight with everything and everyone.  Nothing was ever acceptable to me.  No outcome was good enough.  No person acted as I thought they should.  God was punishing me.  Life was futile.  My whole emotional well being was dependant on outside factors lining up just the way I wanted.  

And they never did.

Coming to and breaking down, I saw that I knew nothing of how things should be for me or anyone else.  I saw in my own life that I needed pain, loss and insanity.  Though not liking it (and I still don’t), I needed it to surrender my will and rigid way of thinking.  I needed to experience lack of control to see that I control nothing outside of my own actions.  

Relief is allowing things to be as they are.  Peace is not needing things to happen in any certain way, by seperating myself and my feelings from what happens around me, allowing the flow of the universe to just pass through me.  

Moving slow and steady, training my thinking to stay in the day I am in and focusing on experiences in each present moment, help me stay centred.  I am aware of and experience synchronicity.

I can feel connected.

I can be loving.  

I can be free.

Knowing that in this very moment, separate from the chaos of the past and the fear of future, I am okay, I can find peace.

Everything is beautiful today, right here, right now.  I am right where I am meant to be.

Life is unfolding right before my eyes.  Instead of futile and tragic, it appears fascinating and exciting.