Words From A Writer

I’m a writer.
Why?
Because I say I am.
Because I believe I am.
Because I write.
Because I have something to say and the best way I know how to say it is to write it.
Not that I’m not good with being verbal, because I am.
But I’m better when I write it down.
I don’t need to be paid for it.
I do it for free.
I do it because I have a passion for it.
Because I love it.
Because I know I’m supposed to.
I write about what I know.
And what do I know better than my own experience?
What could I possibly know better than the story of my life?
What do I know better than what happens all around me?
I write about what needs to be said.
I write the truth.
Harsh at times, loving at times, confusing at times, but always the truth.
Love it, hate it, accept it or deny it.
Just know this, words hold a lot of power, written or spoken, texted or tweeted.
And these words are written just for you.
I see you.
I see your soul.
I see past the mask and the character, the shortcomings and all of your humanness.
I see myself in you, and you in me.
We are the same you and I, just decorated a bit differently on the outside.
I know you.
Maybe better than YOU know you.
And you’re very much okay.
It’s all going to be okay.
I promise.
What a better way to remind you, just in case you forget, than etching these written words in this very place, to be part of history, so when you forget you can re-read them.
You can come back to find these very words.
Right here.
Written.
By a writer.

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I Dare to Dream

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And always life responds, and provides abundance to what we focus on.

I dare to dream and then the dream becomes real.

I envisioned myself here, in this place, with this amazing career in a field I care deeply about, with this life.

I ignored all the boundaries, the walls became doors, and I continue to live a life with purpose.

All I ever wanted was for my life to matter.

And today, it does.

Pushing Forward

I push forward into the life I’m meant to have, instead I the life I thought I should have.

Most of the time I trust in the universe that what I’m meant to have, I will have.

The people I need to assist me on my journey and help me fulfil my purpose will be placed in my life, and those that no longer serve their purpose will be removed.

Sometimes it takes me a while to see things clearly.

Sometimes it takes me a while to get into acceptance of what happens to be.

Sometimes I doubt, sometimes I get confused and lost.

Sometimes I struggle and resist.

I often get stuck trying to “figure it out” which inevitably always fails.

I’ll try hard to predict the future based on the past or present, a future that for all I know, may never come, instead of trusting.

Sometimes I forget to be patient.

Then I remember that the only I thing I may ever know for sure, is right now.

I guess this is all part of my humanness.

In the end though, I always have a knowing deep down inside, that my creator is all around me, and I will always, no matter what, be okay.

Right Where I’m Supposed To Be

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I used to be so selfish.

If anyone else had good things happen to them I would immediately compare myself to them and be jealous and resentful.

Never grateful for what I had, it was never enough. I always wanted more.

Even with people I thought I loved, I felt this competitive nature about it.

Like everyone else was always to going to get ahead and I wasn’t.

Get ahead where?

I don’t even know now.

I wanted people to be happy, but not happier than me.

I wanted good things for others, but not more than me.

Now I feel tremendous joy when I see others grow and succeed.

I have put myself aside and I strive to help others get what they want out of life.

Where does this change come from?

It comes from the knowledge that when others succeed, I succeed.

When others awaken, I awaken.

We are all connected.

It comes from a deep belief that God wants the best for me and that my purpose on this planet is to help turn the lights on in other people.

God has granted me with a gift of being able to heal others hearts.

God will ensure that I am where I am meant to be as long I take the path suggested and I use my gift to do God’s will.

And I have a solid knowing that I am right where I am supposed to be.

Just One Girl

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I’m just one girl

Someone who’s finding her way

Curious about this world I’m in

Turning over every stone to find the truth

Growing towards a better version of me

Learning, learning and learning

Questioning everything the world has told me

Finding out just what it is I believe in

Stumbling over my feet at times

Falling, falling to confusion and doubt

Yet getting back on my feet time and time again

Stronger than before

Believing, trusting, pushing on

Standing tall and walking towards my dreams with purpose

Moving farther and farther away from my past

Closer and closer to being free

9 Months of Days

Today marks nine months since I have put any mind altering substances in my body.

Nine months ago was the start of an amazing journey towards self realisation, that I never could’ve dreamt up.

I was lifted up out of darkness, when I could not do it for myself, and carried towards hope.

I didn’t make a phone call to a rehab asking for help. I didn’t want to live anymore. I had given up on myself and the world we live in. I was hopeless.

My creator had different plans for me, though I didn’t want it.

Thank God my story didn’t end in tragedy.

It’s been at times hard, messy, funny and absolutely beautiful, all wrapped up in one tremendous experience.

And it’s been my own unique experience.

Some things I’ve done I do not wish to do again.

My only regret in any situation so far is that I didn’t fear less and love more.

I would have never been able to get this far without building a connection with my creator, that I take with me into everything I do.

This has afforded me more happiness, laughter and freedom I’ve ever experience in all my life.

Being open to love without conditions and see that each spirit that walks this planet in human form is part of me and I a part of them, has been the greatest gift I’ve been given.

To everyone who has touched my heart along the way, I hold you and the things I’ve learned from you with me always.

Those who have loved me and allowed me to love you make this all worth it.

Answers

All the answers I need are within me.

How do I find my place in the world? How do I find and understand my purpose?

First I must become aware of which voice is the voice of my being. I must learn to not identify with and allow my thinking to get in the way of hearing the voice of my being.

I must listen and have the courage to follow the part of me that can do no other.

And it does take courage.

Do I have what it takes to not do what everyone would tell me to do and take the road less traveled?

Instead of resisting what I know, to find my purpose and learn what I must learn to fulfill my destiny, I must to stop judging and resisting.

My purpose may not at this time be on such a grand scale. Sometimes it starts small.

I will never understand the tiny part I play in this master plan. But what I do can cause a ripple than can have the affect of a tidal wave.

By building within myself, the effect on those around me paying attention can be magnificent.

Maybe I’m teaching a future leader of many to love without conditions.

Maybe I’m teaching someone about small acts of courage.

Maybe I could be showing someone how to find God.

A smile, being there for someone, reaching out with love, a kind gesture, loving actions, raise the vibration of everyone in the energetic vacinity.

I can never know how acting out of love without fear will serve humanity and that’s okay.

All I must do is stay present to see with my soul where I should be and what to do now.

The answers will come, but not in tomorrow, next week or anywhere in the future where I will never be.

They are all here right now, if I only look for them.

What Do I Stand For

I used to think I stood for something

Now looking back I really fell for anything

So attached to what others thought of me

Scared of not being okay without certain people around me

Misplaced faith only in the material world

I kept my mouth shut because of being afraid that I wouldn’t get what I needed from people I mistakenly thought I needed

I did what I was told

Deep down inside I knew truth but denying it to myself kept me spiritually sick

I tried to fit in to the false beliefs of the world

It almost killed me

Today I am grateful for clarity, willingness, humility and courage

Every step I take towards truth I feel more free

I gain experience in the fact that there is a power that wants nothing but good for me

I just need to stay connected to that creative intelligence

What I focus on I magnify

So when I focus on love, happiness and miracles

Those things grow around me

I am grateful to have the life I have today

Not because of the money I have or don’t have

Not because of the people I have in my life or don’t have

It’s all because of what I have gained within me

Honoring That Voice

There is a voice inside me speaking clearly

It comes not from my head but from the center of my being

It wants me to give, love and serve others

Spirit wants me to just love and serve you

Right here

Right now

It wants me to follow where it leads

Ego wants to tell me otherwise

Oh but my past, the things I’ve done, the life I have led, the things that have happened, I won’t get what I need, everyone will leave me, I am who I have thought I was

Don’t trust

Be afraid to love

Let no one in

My story, my story, my story

Spirit says trust in me and you will be free

I am not my past

I am not that character I have played in my story

Through following the voice of my creator that lives inside me

By answering to that voice and no one else

Making no apologies for honoring the gift of knowing

I become who God intended me to be

My path becomes clearer

Purpose is revealed

I grow closer to the feeling of oneness and connection to all things in the universe

Walking through fear and constantly in trust

I find the freedom I have always been seeking