“The resistance to the unpleasant situation is the root of suffering.”
― Ram Dass
Today it’s raining.
As I sit out in the back yard and watch the rain drops fall, soaking the roof of the house, trees, grass and flowers, it causes me to think about how necessary the rain is for the life flow of the planet.
So it is with the human experience that times of darkness, rain, storm and suffering is necessary for our own ebb and flow of life.
In times where I could not see truth, when I didn’t understand, when I questioned everything in defiance and resistance, through the dark clouds there inevitably came the light of the sun.
With the light came surrender and then an awakening.
I always came out the other side and with more knowledge and consciousness.
No matter what happens, life does go on.
Although I prefer the upswing that happens after dark times, one can’t exist without the other.
So today I thank the universe for the lessons, for everything, so I can get closer to my creator and know myself better.
There’s so much beauty in the world.
It’s in every moment.
Only if I’m constantly looking back into the past or planning, worrying or stressing about the future, I can’t see the beauty and amazement that lies in what’s right in front of me.
Some say life is tough.
They say it’s supposed to be hard.
I’ve thought that before.
I think it is hard if you believe it is supposed to be hard.
I am eternally thankful that I’ve had a different experience now.
I’m more free now than ever before, not because life has gone or suddenly started going my way but because I gave up resisting everything and everyone.
I strive to remain present.
By giving up resistance I find I don’t need to suffer.
How can I judge what’s happening when I can’t see the end result?
What my experience tells me is that allowing what is to just be, I am happier, calmer, more peaceful and joyous.
Living in gratitude for what I have just brings more into my life.
The universe comes to me and my life just becomes a whole lot better.
It’s hard to be human most of the time. When awakened and all of the awareness and intuition floods in, the thinking mind works even harder to block it, figure it out and keep us from the truth.
A pattern I have been trying to break for a long time is denying the truth I know because my mind doesn’t want it to be true.
Because my mind is a place full of fear about what is. It then projects a future that either unrealistic fantasy or tragedy. In judgement about what is, my mind labels the present as “good” or “bad”. Obviously when it goes the way I want the judgement computes as “good”.
When it doesn’t, it appears to be “bad”.
It tells me that this is not supposed to happen or I would be better off, happier, if it would just would happen the way I think it should.
Never does it tell me that what’s happening is happening because it’s meant to, that not only are things unfolding in a divine way that is beyond what I will understand but that I need understand nothing.
Again, this incessant need to understand is from my thinking mind. And there are no answers there.
My soul just wants to experience.
So thinking is my only problem, all thinking. Without judgement there are really no “problems”.
The struggle is when to do and when to not do.
What can I change by doing and what matters little in this unfolding of the universe?
Again I am brought back to the only answers I know at this point, unconditional love, courage, living truth, being present and being the light.
If there is one thing I know to be true
On this journey towards the light
The one thing I need to always honor
To be able to live on this earth without needing to reach for something to quiet my mind
Is to live in and speak up for truth
No matter what the world thinks
No matter what those around me think
Whether people leave me or don’t leave me
Whether people like it or don’t like it
I answer to my creator
I need to have the courage to carry the message of truth
I need to stand in the light of solution
I need to speak up about God, that all knowing creative intelligence that performs miracles on those like me that have been lifted out of darkness and shown the way
I know that my soul cannot tolerant the false reality around me that most choose to live in
I have been granted a gift and my primary purpose is to honor that