In this period of completing a year sober, I look back on all the people who had at one point been on this journey with me but did not make it.
They have just fallen away from my life, usually back into drugs and alcohol.
I often wonder why me?
I constantly ask God what is it that I’m meant to do on this planet.
I must have a purpose.
Sometimes I feel solid in knowing what that is.
Sometimes I feel lost and I don’t know what God wants from me.
That’s when I’m pushed into seeking more.
At all times when I’m brought to my knees by confusion, lack of answers, loss of direction, sadness and pain, as long as I stay close to my creator, there is the other side awaiting me.
On the other side is more self knowledge, more consciousness and always there is more love.
Whatever the reasons I am still here are, above all else, I honor this gift of life and sobriety today.