Feeling Whole

Why is it that I have felt that I needed certain people in my life, whether family, friend or lover?

How had I gotten attached to the idea that I am not okay without them in my life in some form or another?

It seems that I have been looking to others to somehow make me feel whole.

My mother’s love and approval must mean I am a lovable and a good person.

My friends wanting to be around me and share their life with me must mean I am worthy of love and friendship.

My lover wants to be with me therefore I must be attractive, desirable and lovable.

Do I not already know all these things about myself aside from what others see in me?

I was constantly looking to others to know whether or not I was okay with myself.

I was needing without knowing I was needy.

Relationships with others failed or disappointed or worse yet, had me feeling less than instead of the feeling I was seeking which was to be whole.

I was looking to feel whole in places I would never find it.

In reality, I must be whole first to ever come into relationship with others successfully.

I find all that I was seeking to find in others, in building the relationship between myself and my creator.

I finally have a relationship that will never disappointment or lead me astray, that will comfort and love me, and that will give me all that I ever need.

I am free from needing anyone to truly know who I am today.

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What Can I Give Today?

If I am to be anything to anyone else the best thing I can do is build within myself first.

I have found that when I know who I am, when I am spiritually connected, when I focus on the things I need to change in me, when I believe in not just who I am today but who I am becoming, I can then come into relationships with others and bring goodness.

If I don’t have love in me to give then my relationships don’t work. If I’m filled with anger, resentment and fear, that is what I give to others. If I’m filled with judgement of myself then all I do is judge others.

When I love myself I can focus on what I can bring to others, to help lighten their lives and how I can love them better. I can find more peace in these relationships.

It’s in the turning away from what I think I need to get from people and turning to what I can give to them that I find everything I’ve been looking for.

I put each relationship to the test.

What can I bring to my relationships today?

Have I done the work within myself to create loving relationships?

What’s In A Bottom?

Spiritual lessons come in all shapes and sizes, in all areas of life. So do bottoms. The problem with bottoms is that you may think you’re already there and then you go back just to find a new, lower bottom.

In my experience, I don’t really know I’m done with something until some time passes. I may be done for a short time because of the sting of my ego being bruised but then I go back for more.

Inevitably comes a time in every painful situation where the suffering out ways the benefits and therein lies a bottom.

Time away brings clarity. When emotionally removed from a situation I am able to see the truth I couldn’t see while in it.

The real lessons start to be revealed.

What do I really want? Why was I so willing to settle for less than everything I know is possible? Why couldn’t I just let go until now? What was it that drove my actions?

These are valuable questions that, if asked, are surely answered.

Being open to find the answers takes a lot of humility.

The hope is that I don’t keep finding myself in the same situations and expecting different results.

If I really trust in a power that is all loving and wants the best for me then I can let go and trust that if I move on from situations that no longer serve me, there are tremendous gifts on the other side.

The gift in bottoms that seem so sad and tragic at the time, is the growth we can attain, the self knowledge that is possible and faith in a better tomorrow in all things.

It’s only when I believe I deserve better that I attain better.

Today I surrender all to God and love myself enough to allow God to work in my life.

I just let go.

Creating Reality

The problem that causes all of my “problems” in this human experience lies not in truth but in my perception of my day.

My reality is based in the story I tell myself. My feelings follow from whatever story I am telling myself.

Most always, nothing changes in my day. Truth does not change. It’s the story I start telling myself from my thoughts that cause me to feel a certain way.

It comes from my judgement of events.

That judgement comes from belief systems not based in truth.

I can start to tell myself a new story.

I can tell myself any story I wish and then my feelings can change around what I see is happening.

I can tell myself wonderful stories, stories of gratitude, and create a wonderful existence.

I have the power to control my feelings.

I can tell myself that every moment in my present life is bringing me to something greater.

It lies in the connection of mind, body and spirit.

Guided by spirit, I can change what my mind thinks, my “feelings” and the reaction of my body to my thinking mind.

Being constantly aware of the story I tell myself takes practice.

If I let God in I have the power to change it all, to change my entire reality.

 

Amends to self

My intention is to not repeat the same behaviours, at least not consciously.

This is a commitment I make to myself as part of my living amends to myself.

I commit to speaking my truth no matter what the consequences.

I commit to not avoiding pain, love, conflict or difficulties but to meet them head on.

I commit to not running when things get to be uncomfortable, especially from those who are important to me.

I commit to rigorous honesty, with myself and others.

I commit to loving others without conditions, whether or not I understand their words, feelings or actions and especially when these words, feelings or actions personally affect me.

I commit to honouring other human being’s feelings, because as Pat Allen says, “Feelings are not negotiable.”

I promise not to withhold my love of others out of punishment, not to shut others out, hurt others intentionally or manipulate situations and people for my own selfish ends.

I promise to understand rather than seek to be understood, to comfort rather than seek to be comforted and to love rather than seek to be loved.

This is self love.

This is working a program.

Inspirational Song Lyrics: Katy Perry Part of Me

Music is a very important to my heart and my soul.  A good song can change my mood in a less than a minute.  That’s why I wanted to start posting links and lyrics to my most favorite inspirational songs to share with all of you.  Please feel free to add your own favorite song lyrics and links, we are all always looking for new ones to add to our collection!

Katy Perry: Part of Me

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Days like this I want to drive away
Pack my bags and watch your shadow fade
You chewed me up and spit me out
Like I was poison in your mouth
You took my light, you drain me down
That was then and this is now
Now look at me

Chorus:
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no
Throw your sticks and stones
Throw your bombs and blows
But you’re not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no

I just wanna throw my phone away
Find out who is really there for me
You ripped me off, your love was cheap
Was always tearing at the seams
I fell deep and you let me drown
But that was then and this is now
Now look at me

Chorus:
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no
Throw your sticks and stones
Throw your bombs and blows
But you’re not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no

Bridge:
Now look at me I’m sparkling
A firework, a dancing flame
You’ll won’t never put me out again
I’m glowing oh whoa
You can keep the diamond ring
It don’t mean nothing anyway
In fact you can keep everything
Yeah yeah, except for me

Chorus:
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no (away from me)
Throw your sticks and stones
Throw your bombs and blows
But you’re not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no

This is the part of me (no)
(away from me) This is the part of me
Throw your sticks and stones
Throw your bombs and blows
But you’re not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you’re never gonna ever take away from me, no

 

Inspirational Lyrics: Firework

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To all my girls out there, let your lights shine!

 Katy Perry: Firework

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Do you ever feel like a plastic bag

 

Drifting through the wind

Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there’s still a chance for you
Cause there’s a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you’re a firework
Come on show ’em what you’re worth
Make ’em go “Oh, oh, oh!”
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you’re a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make ’em go “Oh, oh, oh!”
You’re gunna leave ’em fallin’ down-own-own

You don’t have to feel like a waste of space
You’re original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you’re reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it’s time, you’ll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you’re a firework
Come on show ’em what you’re worth
Make ’em go “Oh, oh, oh!”
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you’re a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make ’em go “Oh, oh, oh!”
You’re gonna leave ’em all in awe-awe-awe”

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It’s always been inside of you, you, you
And now it’s time to let it through

Cause baby you’re a firework
Come on show ’em what your worth
Make ’em go “Oh, oh, oh!”
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you’re a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make ’em go “Oh, oh, oh!”
You’re gonna leave ’em all in awe-awe-awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

I Will Survive

Positive affirmations I find helpful in reminding myself who I am, where I am going and who I want to be:

I am intelligent

I am lovable

I am driven

I make things happen

Dreams come true, when I focus on them everyday

I am beautiful… to someone

I am positive

No one can take my self esteem away from me

I can do anything I set my mind to

I can do anything if I work hard

Other people do it, I can do it.  We are all made of the same stuff

I am meant for greatness

I am likable

Things will work out, they always do

God is protecting me and wants the best for me

Stay true to myself, I can’t go wrong

Follow my passion

Make it happen

Work!

If you want to add to this list, it would be fun to see how long we can get it and find new ways to remind ourselves of what beautiful gifts we are to this world.  Please join the challenge!