Right Where I’m Supposed To Be

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I used to be so selfish.

If anyone else had good things happen to them I would immediately compare myself to them and be jealous and resentful.

Never grateful for what I had, it was never enough. I always wanted more.

Even with people I thought I loved, I felt this competitive nature about it.

Like everyone else was always to going to get ahead and I wasn’t.

Get ahead where?

I don’t even know now.

I wanted people to be happy, but not happier than me.

I wanted good things for others, but not more than me.

Now I feel tremendous joy when I see others grow and succeed.

I have put myself aside and I strive to help others get what they want out of life.

Where does this change come from?

It comes from the knowledge that when others succeed, I succeed.

When others awaken, I awaken.

We are all connected.

It comes from a deep belief that God wants the best for me and that my purpose on this planet is to help turn the lights on in other people.

God has granted me with a gift of being able to heal others hearts.

God will ensure that I am where I am meant to be as long I take the path suggested and I use my gift to do God’s will.

And I have a solid knowing that I am right where I am supposed to be.

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First Thing’s First

The problem of being stuck in self was the root of all my problems.

When I all I think about is how I am going to manage in this world, how I am going to have money, security, a career, friends, lovers, having fun, safety and everything else I can obsess about, the result is misery.

For me everything goes back to the relationship I have with my creator. If I trust this thing, if I believe it is always by my side, guiding and protecting me, then I have much less fear about life and my place in it.

I have surrendered to the fact that I am here to do the will of my creator first and not my own.

That doesn’t mean I don’t get to have an amazing life. In fact the more I put others first and serve my creator and humanity, the more my life steadily improves.

It sometimes feels like getting out of self is against my natural inclination. However it is only my ego that fights it, not the ultimate nature of my being.

I just continually do all I can to keep the gift of my awakening alive and take actions to not slip backwards into unconsciousness.

It works, it really does.

What Can I Give Today?

If I am to be anything to anyone else the best thing I can do is build within myself first.

I have found that when I know who I am, when I am spiritually connected, when I focus on the things I need to change in me, when I believe in not just who I am today but who I am becoming, I can then come into relationships with others and bring goodness.

If I don’t have love in me to give then my relationships don’t work. If I’m filled with anger, resentment and fear, that is what I give to others. If I’m filled with judgement of myself then all I do is judge others.

When I love myself I can focus on what I can bring to others, to help lighten their lives and how I can love them better. I can find more peace in these relationships.

It’s in the turning away from what I think I need to get from people and turning to what I can give to them that I find everything I’ve been looking for.

I put each relationship to the test.

What can I bring to my relationships today?

Have I done the work within myself to create loving relationships?