Well Hello There Life!

imageI realize that as I do all these things to figure myself out…

Life is passing me by.

I operate under the belief that I have all the time in the world…

When in truth that is the lie.

It’s an excuse to hide.

I think I’m just making myself better, by analyzing my behavior and reviewing my history…

Yet without balance I am no longer really living.

There is no better version of me…

I’m just me, complete already.

As I wait and strive for perfection, the perfect job, perfect home, perfect romance…

The truth is that “perfect” only exists in my mind, the same mind that will never admit perfection even if perfection were to arrive.

Because the mind will only then want something else, something better.

The solution…

Is to go live an incredibly full and messy life, allowing it to be all what life is.

What better time than in “the now”?

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Is Life Supposed To Be Hard?

There’s so much beauty in the world.

It’s in every moment.

Only if I’m constantly looking back into the past or planning, worrying or stressing about the future, I can’t see the beauty and amazement that lies in what’s right in front of me.

Some say life is tough.

They say it’s supposed to be hard.

I’ve thought that before.

I think it is hard if you believe it is supposed to be hard.

I am eternally thankful that I’ve had a different experience now.

I’m more free now than ever before, not because life has gone or suddenly started going my way but because I gave up resisting everything and everyone.

I strive to remain present.

By giving up resistance I find I don’t need to suffer.

How can I judge what’s happening when I can’t see the end result?

What my experience tells me is that allowing what is to just be, I am happier, calmer, more peaceful and joyous.

Living in gratitude for what I have just brings more into my life.

The universe comes to me and my life just becomes a whole lot better.

Mirrors Of Truth

The struggle ego drives against allowing truth to be heard can at times be much stronger than others, especially when off center.

Ego doesn’t have to win though.

Ego wants us alone, isolated. It wants us to view ourselves as separate, different. It wants to keep us afraid, especially of closeness to others.

There are people that come into our lives that encourage us to be and do better. They encourage us to continue to grow, even when our mind has us in its grip and fights it. They carry the light for us when we feel like we can’t.

As uncomfortable as it can be because ego always wants to be in charge, when someone speaks truth, our soul hears it.

We recognize truth not from the specific person speaking it but because it is already within us. They just are a mirror of the truth we already know.

But we need those mirrors so we can be reminded when we forget. Those people placed around us who work to raise consciousness are gifts of the universe to hold close.

Ego wants us anywhere but the present because everything we need is there. In the present moment there is nothing to fear. The people we love are in the present. God is in the present.  Yet ego refuses to look in right here and now for completeness because it can’t survive there.

There is nothing in future moments that will make us whole, yet we rush to them chasing that lie.  If we just get this thing, that amount of money, approval from “them”, job security, the right partner, ego says then we will feel complete.  

We get these things and sure enough, wholeness is not found.  

Ego just wants something more.

But we are only ever in the here and now.

Completeness and wholeness is right here, in this moment.

And that is the truth.

My Thinking Mind

I am so blessed to have had the gift of suffering and desperation so that I could be awakened to the truth. The pain and confusion of my existence up until almost eight months ago was necessary to push me into seeking to know my creator and what I am.

My thinking mind has been in opposition to my spirit the whole time. I just haven’t been conscious to it. My mind wants to replay the past, confine me to it and create scenarios of tragedy for the future.

When in truth, I am not my past nor my future.

These are just things that have happened. But that is just a story. It is not me. When I can become aware of the thoughts coming from my mind and that they aren’t reality, I have a chance to not buy into them.

The peace I have found is by staying present and ceasing to resist everything and everyone. The flow of the universe is something that I just go along with. It’s so much easier than attempting to struggle against it.

I can only be at peace when my mind is quiet and I’m fully in the beauty of the moment. I can experience true freedom.

Borrow

If you allow me to borrow your heart

For as long as the heavens determine

If you allow me to keep it safe

For as long as the sun shines on this moment of time

Even though I can never call it mine

It is not to be possessed

It belongs to no one

It was created by God just for you

Even though it shall be forever free to follow where it shall go

If you allow your heart to come find shelter beside my own

For as long as the puzzle pieces fit

And walk along the path towards light in sweet harmony

Relaxing into the beauty of togetherness

Leaving behind the illusion of the past

Jumping off the waterfall cliffs of possibility

Connecting to it’s missing piece

If you allow me to borrow your heart

I will lend mine out to you

 

 

 

 

5 Principles To Freedom

The 5 spiritual principles that lead me to freedom that I have sought my who human life are:

1. To thine own self be true

I follow it no matter what. I don’t let fear of consequences, people’s reactions or my thinking mind determine how I live in this day. I push fear aside and follow my heart. I don’t allow my ego or pride to dictate my actions.

2. Loving without conditions

It’s always about loving more, never less. I allow myself to love and be loving. Only when I give love to others, can I feel love and allow myself to be loved. It’s never in the seeking.

3. Non-judgement

Truth is there is no good and bad, right and wrong, should and shouldn’t. That is the lie the ego tells us. It is a trap that keeps us isolated from God and away from the light.

4. Non-violation

I don’t cause harm to myself or others. Shutting of from God, being unwilling, stuck and not reaching for solution harms me and I, in turn, harm others.

5. Presence

I stay in the now. I let go of the past and stay out of the future. I allow God to work in my life and experience peace. I turn everything over. I remain present so I can see the beauty of what’s been given to me. I allow people in. I remain teachable. I stay open and allow the experience of right now.

I have been given everything I need. It’s whether I choose to recognise the gifts from God or turn away from them.

Do I live in self will and return to insanity?

Or do I let go?

The choice is mine alone.