As I have grown and awakened to truth throughout this life’s journey, as much I have learned, what I know about myself today is that I can easily forget everything.
I can shut myself off from God in a second, stop doing what I have been doing that works and then instead of being driven by spirit, I am driven by ego.
I become closed, ego prevents me from hearing truth and the downward spiral occurs.
Instead of standing in the light with my fellows, I end up standing in darkness alone.
The good news is as soon as I become wiling and open to listen, I again remember why I’m here, what my purpose is and what is really important, like being awakened from a bad dream.
There is no past, no future, just now.
I am not this body nor this character in my story.
I’m not here to for the career, the money, the things, the partner, the friends, the kids, the family or any acknowledgement I may seek to gain from these things.
The main thing that remains constant, the truth I always come back to from all this, is that my only job here on the planet is to love and embody love.
It seems too simple to be true.
It is entirely that simple.
But that’s it.
It’s all about love.
The struggle ego drives against allowing truth to be heard can at times be much stronger than others, especially when off center.
Ego doesn’t have to win though.
Ego wants us alone, isolated. It wants us to view ourselves as separate, different. It wants to keep us afraid, especially of closeness to others.
There are people that come into our lives that encourage us to be and do better. They encourage us to continue to grow, even when our mind has us in its grip and fights it. They carry the light for us when we feel like we can’t.
As uncomfortable as it can be because ego always wants to be in charge, when someone speaks truth, our soul hears it.
We recognize truth not from the specific person speaking it but because it is already within us. They just are a mirror of the truth we already know.
But we need those mirrors so we can be reminded when we forget. Those people placed around us who work to raise consciousness are gifts of the universe to hold close.
Ego wants us anywhere but the present because everything we need is there. In the present moment there is nothing to fear. The people we love are in the present. God is in the present. Yet ego refuses to look in right here and now for completeness because it can’t survive there.
There is nothing in future moments that will make us whole, yet we rush to them chasing that lie. If we just get this thing, that amount of money, approval from “them”, job security, the right partner, ego says then we will feel complete.
We get these things and sure enough, wholeness is not found.
Ego just wants something more.
But we are only ever in the here and now.
Completeness and wholeness is right here, in this moment.
And that is the truth.
I will give to the greater good today
I will turn away from selfish desires and be there for someone else
I won’t identify with every passing thought because it is not who and what I am
I will listen to my heart not my mind
I will trust that I have all the answers I need within me
I will give all of myself withholding nothing
I won’t try to manage, manipulate and control my environment or the people around me
I will be compassionate, tolerant and loving to those around me
I will look pass the characters people play and look for and speak to their souls
I will be gentle on myself
I will create something amazing today
I will shine light into darkness
I will give someone else hope
I won’t live in the past nor let the past decide my future
I will break old patterns of behaviour and do something different
I will learn something new
I will stay in the beauty of the present
I will slow down
I won’t rush to the next moment
I will allow others to help me today
I will allow love in
I am so blessed to have had the gift of suffering and desperation so that I could be awakened to the truth. The pain and confusion of my existence up until almost eight months ago was necessary to push me into seeking to know my creator and what I am.
My thinking mind has been in opposition to my spirit the whole time. I just haven’t been conscious to it. My mind wants to replay the past, confine me to it and create scenarios of tragedy for the future.
When in truth, I am not my past nor my future.
These are just things that have happened. But that is just a story. It is not me. When I can become aware of the thoughts coming from my mind and that they aren’t reality, I have a chance to not buy into them.
The peace I have found is by staying present and ceasing to resist everything and everyone. The flow of the universe is something that I just go along with. It’s so much easier than attempting to struggle against it.
I can only be at peace when my mind is quiet and I’m fully in the beauty of the moment. I can experience true freedom.
The most important rules to being completely free:
Say what you need to say now and don’t wait.
Love like there’s no tomorrow.
Forgive and forget.
And most importantly…
Don’t take yourself so darn seriously.
Today I stand in the light
A single match lit with it’s flame burning brightly
Navigating through winds and rain
Storms though dramatically breathtaking
Eventually extinguish even roaring fires
Shielding from the elements to keep my glow
Small and unimportant
Yet resting on such responsibility
Leaning against other matches to ignite the torch of awareness
Brightening the path upward and onward for more to find their way
When dark is only the vacancy of hope
Cold the absence of love
Emptiness the lacking of God
Knowing that place very well
This tiny match pushes on from the repeating the past
And finds it’s home in the warm embrace of truth
If you allow me to borrow your heart
For as long as the heavens determine
If you allow me to keep it safe
For as long as the sun shines on this moment of time
Even though I can never call it mine
It is not to be possessed
It belongs to no one
It was created by God just for you
Even though it shall be forever free to follow where it shall go
If you allow your heart to come find shelter beside my own
For as long as the puzzle pieces fit
And walk along the path towards light in sweet harmony
Relaxing into the beauty of togetherness
Leaving behind the illusion of the past
Jumping off the waterfall cliffs of possibility
Connecting to it’s missing piece
If you allow me to borrow your heart
I will lend mine out to you
If I had no tomorrow I what would I do?
I would tell everyone I know how much I love them.
I would hug more.
I would kiss more.
I would touch more.
I wouldn’t be afraid.
I would say EVERYTHING I needed to say to the ones I needed to say it to.
I wouldn’t care what I am wearing, how much I weigh, how my hair looks or how much money I have in the bank.
I would go outside.
I would smell and touch flowers.
I would look for butterflies.
I would take off my shoes to feel the earth under my feet.
I would want to remember how the sun and wind feel on my skin.
I would sit under the moon and the stars in the night sky and hold those I love close.
I would sing more.
I would dance to my favorite music, like no one was watching.
I would be still and thank God for every moment of my precious life here on earth.