After every period of suffering, resistance and pain lies the rainbow of clarity, if only I look up from the ground to the sky to see it.
The path to awakening, for this girl, consists of constant shifts in perspective. Often times I get stuck in a way of perceiving the world around me that is not based in truth.
I don’t even know it’s happening.
It sneaks up on me and I can’t see it, because the more my spirit evolves, so does my ego. It has to because of the laws of the universe, the yin and the yang or Einstein’s theory of relativity.
The more evolved the soul, the more evolved the ego.
My ego (basically everything that comes from my thinking) is always evolving and changing as I do, finding new ways to infiltrate, override and confuse what my soul knows.
It is not my friend.
The “problem” if there is such a thing, is not in what is, no matter what is happening around me, but always lies in my perception of what is.
So I go to my spiritual teacher to help me see what sometimes I cannot, someone who tells me the truth. Though my ego will try fight, deny or rationalize, my soul hears it. As long as I have one thing on my side, my ego cannot win.
That indispensable thing is willingness.
Willingness allows me to hear her and to have the other things on my side that save me being owned by my mind. Those things are honesty, humility and open mindedness.
I have a chance, with all these gifts, to move towards clarity, truth and freedom.
And freedom from being chained by anything or anyone, is what I’ve always sought.
Someone said to me recently that after a tough time and then major surrender, they set out to make God their everything, to get everything they had realized they were still seeking in the outside world from God.
When they did that, a transformation occurred, bringing amazing freedom and gifts like none other.
When they said that, my soul heard it.
And now that has been my new intention.