“IF you can’t stop thinking about it, don’t stop working for it.”
“This is what I know for sure, you don’t get what you wish for, you don’t even get what you hope for. You get what you believe.” –Oprah
Maybe God has been listening all along.
Maybe God already has placed the perfect person in my life, right in front of me, yet I just refused to see it.
Maybe I’ve already met my soul mate but I was afraid of getting everything I’ve been saying I want all along?
I say I want a partner, a lover, loyalty, love without conditions, someone who makes me better, someone who won’t leave me, yet when that person comes along I turn them away?
Maybe I really don’t want these things.
Maybe I chase those who end up leaving me because I get uncomfortable with someone who really loves me exactly the way I am?
Someone who sees into my soul and knows the very parts that make me who I am?
Someone who sees the good in me, and accepts the “not so good”.
Maybe the intimacy that kind of person brings is the one holding a mirror to myself, showing me that I’d rather chase someone who is unavailable.
How do I know that something I thought was wrong, is actually right?
How do I know that something I thought was harmful was actually the perfect thing for me?
How does one know that?
Who makes those decisions? My friends? Therapist? Sponsor? My head? My alcoholism?
Where is God in all this?
What and who do I listen to?
What would my soul have me do? What would love do? What would self love do?
Sometimes it’s hard to know which is the voice of fear and which is the voice of love.
Awakening is listening to the God within.
I left behind my blond locks, cigarettes, and any relationship with another, all in the hopes you would return home, to where I am.
Silly, really, since you are long, long gone.
In my dreams we laugh and live a life of freedom together.
All the things we never said, we say, and we mean it.
We do things differently.
I am different and then so are you.
We get a do over, to make right the wrongs.
I’m not afraid, and neither are you.
You finally see me, I mean, really see me.
In my dreams it’s great, and we are great together.
Really, really great.
Then I wake up, and you are not here.
Things are how they are, so I move on.
There is much to be said of love.
It is the sun’s love that opens a flower, just as love opens a child.
Love heals emotional pain, love heals emptiness, for when there there is emptiness, there is no love.
We can’t measure emptiness, but we can measure love.
When there is love there is fullness, and wholeness.
Just like rain is necessary to grow new things on earth, tears to human beings heal us so new things can grow in our lives.
Allow yourself tears today in healing.
If you are feeling empty and incomplete, find someone to love.
Let that one you find to love be you!
I’m about to move on from the place I have stayed
I feel it being lifted
A tiny bit
With every passing day
I hear nothing from you
Never will I
Finally leaving this place of in between
Unless you catch me first
I’ve loved you 1000 years
A thousand hugs
A thousand jokes
A thousand laughs
A thousand smiles
A thousand joys
A thousand triumphs
A thousand struggles
A thousand victories
A thousand tears
A thousand heartaches
A thousand unanswered questions
A thousand fears
A thousand hopes
A thousand disappointments
A thousand broken wings
A thousand tantrums
A thousand “why”s
A thousand lifetimes I’ve walked away because you would never give 100 percent of your heart and just 1 commitment… to see that we were meant to be, born of the stars, you and me.