No two human experiences are ever the same. There can similarities but really everyone has their own journey maybe only understood by the one having it.
As far as drug addicts and alcoholics, the mystery is how some people get sober young, some old or some never.
Some people get sober and stay sober for their entire life and some get sober and relapse, get sober and relapse.
I can’t even fully answer the question of my own journey. I often wonder what it was about me that just couldn’t get it and keep it.
Even though it has been my path I don’t regret any of it.
I try not to spend too much time “figuring it out”.
Trying to “figure it out” never helped me before.
Staying present is my biggest tool for peace in my life.
What matters to me most now is what I’ve done this far to have a new and different experience with the 12 steps and with life.
I see more now than ever before.
I am more conscious than ever before.
I have more courage, faith, belief, trust, awareness, calm, peace, joy, freedom and hope than ever before.
That is what is important to me today.
I spent my whole life wishing I could just be like everyone else but never quite getting there.
Now, the furthest thing from my wish is wanting to be like everyone else.
I want to think, act and live out of the box.
The box is used to contain us and keep us from ultimate enlightenment and higher consciousness.
One of the main reasons I never felt like others is that I saw what others couldn’t see.
I didn’t know at the time that it was truth that I was seeing but those around me couldn’t.
There needs to be those of us who will withstand the criticism and backlash from those who do not understand and are stuck in their own separate reality, cut off from our creator.
Some of us need to find the courage to shine a light on the darkness.
It is time to come forward and share the message of truth.
It’s time to stand for something.
Today marks eleven months of sobriety without any mind altering substances.
Coming to believe in an all loving creator has transformed everything about me. Building a relationship with my creator, placing my life in his hands and slowly walking step by step, hand in hand with faith, has made this last eleven months the most amazing time in my life.
It has been full of triumphs and heartache. I have had moments of feeling lost and moments of bliss.
That’s the human experience.
Most of all, I finally have the solid belief that anything is possible and limits have seemed to fall away.
Continually I learn, grow and awaken.
How could I not be grateful for my life as it is today compared to how I’ve lived before this?
I often think of you.
I saw you today from a distance.
I wonder how you are and what your life is full of now.
I wonder if you’ve found peace.
I wonder if your happy.
I hope that you are.
I hope you’ve found what you have been searching for.
Physical separation and the illusion of time can never erase what is real.
Whatever happens in this dream world we call the human experience, love for others never disappears.
The feeling of love is the closest we can get to God.
That is all that is real.
I will always love you.
Love never fades, it lasts eternally.
If it is meant to be, nothing and no one on this planet could keep you apart.
If it’s not meant to be, nothing and no one on this planet can keep you together.
What could love do?
Amazingly beautiful things
It can literally create from nothing
As long as we believe we can create
Anything we wish
Out of love
To carry the light
For those who want it
Those who need it
When they are ready
We will be yet still creating
Teaching others to do the same
Waiting for more with open arms
To help guide you home
Surrendering to the divine plan of the universe is so much easier than trying to exert my will against it.
There is nothing to figure out.
Today I need do nothing but just be the creature God intended me to be.
I just need to do the next thing presented to me.
If I just stay present, out of the allusion of self and serve others with love, I can be at peace.
I am so blessed to be where I am today. The universe has led me on a beautiful path to purpose and freedom. When I finally awakened, spirit said to me that I have a job to do on this planet. At that beginning point, clouded by a loud thinking mind, it just wasn’t clear yet exactly what that was.
My being knew it was true.
The path hasn’t always been a straight one. I am always learning and growing. My mind left unchecked has taken me off course at times but thankfully by constantly working to come back to center, I get back on track.
I stay as humble as possible and learn from my experiences so I can keep evolving.
Reading The Power Of Now by Ekhart Tolle has been transformative for me. I have found that I literally awaken as I read it. It’s amazing and has helped free me from the bondage of my ego or “thinking”.
Staying present and becoming conscious to the truth, that I am not what comes from my mind, has been setting me free. Understanding that my ego can only survive if I am in the past or the future, I can observe the thoughts and feelings that come up and know that they are not what’s real.
More and more I can distinguish the difference between the voice of ego and the voice of my being. I can find peace and lasting joy by shining a light of consciousness on my ego.
It only takes constant practice of being present.
Ego cannot survive if I stay present.
It’s so simple.
Everything in the here in now is perfect… and exactly how it should be.
I am so blessed to have had the gift of suffering and desperation so that I could be awakened to the truth. The pain and confusion of my existence up until almost eight months ago was necessary to push me into seeking to know my creator and what I am.
My thinking mind has been in opposition to my spirit the whole time. I just haven’t been conscious to it. My mind wants to replay the past, confine me to it and create scenarios of tragedy for the future.
When in truth, I am not my past nor my future.
These are just things that have happened. But that is just a story. It is not me. When I can become aware of the thoughts coming from my mind and that they aren’t reality, I have a chance to not buy into them.
The peace I have found is by staying present and ceasing to resist everything and everyone. The flow of the universe is something that I just go along with. It’s so much easier than attempting to struggle against it.
I can only be at peace when my mind is quiet and I’m fully in the beauty of the moment. I can experience true freedom.